I Went To Temple Bar

[jesse_ginger]

And I didn't rink not 1 drop of alcohol! Yay for me! The main reason I went is because Patrick F was going and he's also an AA goer. I know that AA people will not be happy since I've only been sober a month (stay away from wet places with wet faces they say) but honestly I think it only made me want to drink less. At first i was a little uneasy because I really have no clue about how to socialize or party without alcohol. I chatted with a couple people and sipped on 2 diet cokes and a red bull. I looked at the half empty glasses of beer sitting by their selves and remembered back to a couple times where i ran out of $ and would hop from table to table finishing people's glasses for them, whether or not I knew them. I remember Jaylene yelling at me once for it and just buying me a damn drink. Pathetic really. And when I thought of that I realized that I just need to learn to deal. I need to find this wonderful girl in me. I actually got up and danced a couple of times. I cannot remember the last time I danced sober though I know I have. I remember giving drunken awful lap dances to people at KI and I remember shaking my ass tons of times in various clubs thinking I was hot shit and being drunk as hell. Stupid. And Benny and I sat down and talked about RENT coming and The Palace and it was really good. I'm glad that I went and think that it helped. No one seemed to mind that I wasn't drinking alcohol and no one gave me the "Oh come on! I'll buy you a drink! You have to drink! Come on!", so that was good. Even though I had fun I think it will be a little while before I go out again. Oh, but I did only spend $6! Which is much much less than the usual $65-80 I would ahve spent on myself.

Tomorrow I wil be sneaking my way up to Alma to see the One Acts. I can't wait to eat food from The Great Wall! Oh, and see people too.