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I need to post more often. So much happens and I just don't make the time to write.
A month ago, when I wasn't looking, someone fell into my heart. She was just teasing me at first, then she kissed me, then she kissed me again. We kissed a lot that evening at the bar, then again the next evening at a party. A few days later, it became clear that we really like each other. The connection is deep. Interesting that it is not frightening, although I do have trouble with trust given my past two miserable choices...one for love and one for play only...who turned out to be liars, users, and emotionally devastating. She is soo not that way at all, and I am being cautious, but open to the possibility that this could be good.
We started out the week before we kissed doing healing work with one another...a trade. I got to look into her and she into me. I didn't think anything more of it. Didn't even get that she had an interest in women, let alone attraction for me.
Is it really possible that all the happiness I have felt in my life for the past year could remain? Could I find happiness with another, or will my fears and self-sabotage get the better of me?
In the meantime, it feels good. We communicate and have a system set up for taking care of and reassuring each other when buttons get pushed. It doesn't feel like one of those too good to be true things, just a heck of a lot of fun with someone who feels very special.
A month ago, when I wasn't looking, someone fell into my heart. She was just teasing me at first, then she kissed me, then she kissed me again. We kissed a lot that evening at the bar, then again the next evening at a party. A few days later, it became clear that we really like each other. The connection is deep. Interesting that it is not frightening, although I do have trouble with trust given my past two miserable choices...one for love and one for play only...who turned out to be liars, users, and emotionally devastating. She is soo not that way at all, and I am being cautious, but open to the possibility that this could be good.
We started out the week before we kissed doing healing work with one another...a trade. I got to look into her and she into me. I didn't think anything more of it. Didn't even get that she had an interest in women, let alone attraction for me.
Is it really possible that all the happiness I have felt in my life for the past year could remain? Could I find happiness with another, or will my fears and self-sabotage get the better of me?
In the meantime, it feels good. We communicate and have a system set up for taking care of and reassuring each other when buttons get pushed. It doesn't feel like one of those too good to be true things, just a heck of a lot of fun with someone who feels very special.