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Every once in a while I go onto Zaba search and look for people I have "misplaced" in my life. Today, after some very interesting soul retreival work, I got a wild hair to do such a search. I have wondered for some time what happened to the last love of my life, Nancy C. Thompson, aka Zia Avila. She is the person from whom I took my last name of Avila to go with Jesse. We spent 7 years together, some as play partners and several engaged to be married, waiting for Hawaii to get that law passed that would make it legal. She had some serious physical (cancer and "fibromyalgia) and mental health (Dissociative Identity Disorder and Schitzo-affective d/o) issues, and disappeared from my life in 1998. I cried for days when we ended our formal relationship, although we continued to live together...had to make it as right as possible by each other. We did this for 6 months, then she had to go.
I have wondered about her for years, never finding a way to find or connect with her. So, today I typed in her name, Zia Avila, and found out that she died of cancer on 12/1/04, one week after her 51st birthday. I knew she was dead, just didn't know how, when or where...somewhere in Ohio. Now I know.
Nancy...Zia...I love you. May I find another love in my life as great as you, with your capacity for love, forgiveness, gratitude and peace. Thank you for making me a better person and bringing me to California so that I could attend acupuncture school and find my own healing path. Thank you for having the strength to leave so I could grow.
I have wondered about her for years, never finding a way to find or connect with her. So, today I typed in her name, Zia Avila, and found out that she died of cancer on 12/1/04, one week after her 51st birthday. I knew she was dead, just didn't know how, when or where...somewhere in Ohio. Now I know.
Nancy...Zia...I love you. May I find another love in my life as great as you, with your capacity for love, forgiveness, gratitude and peace. Thank you for making me a better person and bringing me to California so that I could attend acupuncture school and find my own healing path. Thank you for having the strength to leave so I could grow.