retrospective
I have had a mix of feelings recently. I've been happy and grateful to my friends, who always manage to be there when I need them, whether they get to know it or not. And I've had some pretty depressed feelings too.
I had a "situation" with my sister, really a misunderstanding, and she just left. A friend observed that is seemed like she was acting childishly. I was more surprised and hurt than anything, especially after suggesting that we were both tired and cranky and that we should just get some sleep. She just didn't leave to go across town, but left at midnight to drive all the way back to Tucson. We were both wrong, but the situation really wasn't that big of a deal...really...hmmm. She's called to apologize, but I haven't called her back. Kinda got into that funk where I can't move to do anything.
It brought up all the loss of the former "friend" that I have been having bizarre communication with, and then every other significant loss in my life. I isolated for a couple of days, then made myself go out and socialize. Thanks to my friends who had parties!
What a way to start a year.
As for the past year, I got to both cry and laugh, so it must have been a pretty good year. I've grown a lot, and see that I have a long, long way to go.
I've just finished my 6th year of Tai Chi, a few months away from a brown fringe (equivalent of brown belt in hard martial arts forms). I'm not the best student, but I do have more balance, focus, and ability to defend myself in ways that surprise me given the deceptively slow and soft movements. They teach us the martial arts applications of all the tai chi moves, as well as joint locking.
I'm teaching at the acupuncture college again this semester, fun stuff...cupping, gwa sha, moxa and beginning needling. I have a good career.
I've taken the next semester off the doctoral program...too many other commitments through May. That's a huge relief.
I recently had the realization that I've been single for nearly 5 years now. I was kinda surprised it was that long, cuz I've had a few distractions over these years, but no one who has rocked my world since Nancy. I'm optimistic, though.
Happy New Year Everyone!
I had a "situation" with my sister, really a misunderstanding, and she just left. A friend observed that is seemed like she was acting childishly. I was more surprised and hurt than anything, especially after suggesting that we were both tired and cranky and that we should just get some sleep. She just didn't leave to go across town, but left at midnight to drive all the way back to Tucson. We were both wrong, but the situation really wasn't that big of a deal...really...hmmm. She's called to apologize, but I haven't called her back. Kinda got into that funk where I can't move to do anything.
It brought up all the loss of the former "friend" that I have been having bizarre communication with, and then every other significant loss in my life. I isolated for a couple of days, then made myself go out and socialize. Thanks to my friends who had parties!
What a way to start a year.
As for the past year, I got to both cry and laugh, so it must have been a pretty good year. I've grown a lot, and see that I have a long, long way to go.
I've just finished my 6th year of Tai Chi, a few months away from a brown fringe (equivalent of brown belt in hard martial arts forms). I'm not the best student, but I do have more balance, focus, and ability to defend myself in ways that surprise me given the deceptively slow and soft movements. They teach us the martial arts applications of all the tai chi moves, as well as joint locking.
I'm teaching at the acupuncture college again this semester, fun stuff...cupping, gwa sha, moxa and beginning needling. I have a good career.
I've taken the next semester off the doctoral program...too many other commitments through May. That's a huge relief.
I recently had the realization that I've been single for nearly 5 years now. I was kinda surprised it was that long, cuz I've had a few distractions over these years, but no one who has rocked my world since Nancy. I'm optimistic, though.
Happy New Year Everyone!