Bitch
I don't know what the fuck is wrong with me. I feel like such a superficial whore that even after growing this nice little bond with Luke, he sent me some pics and I don't know if I am okay with what I see. I like him. I am a fucking Samantha that has to have the best of everything, but also a Miranda cuz I keep finding excuses to run.
Then I'm so fucking home sick. Last semester I went so long without seeing my family, and now it's only been a month and I'm losing it. The more and more I try to create this comfort zone here, the more I find it not working. But I can't imagine going home. I don't feel like there is anything there for me.
I'm so scared of everything I am. I got a text from Terrell today and he wanted me to go give him head. I told him I was busy and that was it, but I feel like I have allowed myself to fall into that position. It's not ok.
Then I'm so fucking home sick. Last semester I went so long without seeing my family, and now it's only been a month and I'm losing it. The more and more I try to create this comfort zone here, the more I find it not working. But I can't imagine going home. I don't feel like there is anything there for me.
I'm so scared of everything I am. I got a text from Terrell today and he wanted me to go give him head. I told him I was busy and that was it, but I feel like I have allowed myself to fall into that position. It's not ok.