one more semester down...
and i find myself two points away from a full scholarship next year. two tiny points... out of a 900 point class. i missed it by two.
i find myself thinking the proverbial '...if only...'
but i also find myself unnervingly aware of how beautiful imperfection is... of how letting go of that naive desire to be the best, to be on top, to get everything right will probably be the best thing i ever do.
i don't need a god complex to be great.
my resolution is to just let go. i know that i have every single tool i could possibly need to be a success at anything i choose to do. and to be honest, i know that i did my very best.
and i can accept that my very best wasn't good enough, not good enough based on some arbitrary scale. but it was good enough for me.
i found myself perusing a medical school website yesterday... Mayo Medical School in Rochester, Minnesota. i found myself considering it again.
i feel like the next two years of my life are going to determine so much. i have about a million decisions to make and i know i'll find my way. there is no doubt in my mind that i will somehow, someway figure out what i'm meant to be. the truth of the matter is i don't have a clue what i want to be... but i know who i want to be. and i think that is probably better.
and today, right now i am so proud of what i've accomplished.
and despite those damn two points, i'm happy.
i'm happy. ;)
i find myself thinking the proverbial '...if only...'
but i also find myself unnervingly aware of how beautiful imperfection is... of how letting go of that naive desire to be the best, to be on top, to get everything right will probably be the best thing i ever do.
i don't need a god complex to be great.
my resolution is to just let go. i know that i have every single tool i could possibly need to be a success at anything i choose to do. and to be honest, i know that i did my very best.
and i can accept that my very best wasn't good enough, not good enough based on some arbitrary scale. but it was good enough for me.
i found myself perusing a medical school website yesterday... Mayo Medical School in Rochester, Minnesota. i found myself considering it again.
i feel like the next two years of my life are going to determine so much. i have about a million decisions to make and i know i'll find my way. there is no doubt in my mind that i will somehow, someway figure out what i'm meant to be. the truth of the matter is i don't have a clue what i want to be... but i know who i want to be. and i think that is probably better.
and today, right now i am so proud of what i've accomplished.
and despite those damn two points, i'm happy.
i'm happy. ;)