today was quite the fucked up day...
Hey might as well updte this thang while i got a little time. today was pretty fucked. this life is draining me...i don't hate it though. i've met a lot of great great people this year, and i'm so happy for it, i've been having the best time at school.
i've actually been doing homework, and going to class. thank you.
i've been so fucking hungover the past two days, definatly taking a break tonight, just going to chill out after this damn stressful day. i can't even believe myself sometimes.
did i really do that?
did i really get caught. i am so greatful that my parents havn't kicked me out yet and disowned me. but my mom basically told it like it is...i'm a screwup, everyone does so much for me and all i do is drink, drugs, and party. they're not believing the lies anymore, and can't believe anything i say, and it tears my heart to pieces and ties my stomach in knots because i love my family so much. and i'm obviously lying or not telling them everything for a reason. because then they'd probably worry about me 8 million times more. stress.
so i had a 3 week stint working at dunkin donuts, and hated every minute of it. especially how my only shift was saturday morning 4:30-12. so needless to say it didn't work out and i decided to stop going, and now i've fucked myself over and dont have a job and no money. yay.
i'm being a native american for halloween. i don't know where i'm going, but i can tell you this, i will be one drunk little indian :)
i've been going down this path that i shouldn't be on, but i like it and i'm going to stay on it for awhile, you only live once, i'll see where it takes me...
i've actually been doing homework, and going to class. thank you.
i've been so fucking hungover the past two days, definatly taking a break tonight, just going to chill out after this damn stressful day. i can't even believe myself sometimes.
did i really do that?
did i really get caught. i am so greatful that my parents havn't kicked me out yet and disowned me. but my mom basically told it like it is...i'm a screwup, everyone does so much for me and all i do is drink, drugs, and party. they're not believing the lies anymore, and can't believe anything i say, and it tears my heart to pieces and ties my stomach in knots because i love my family so much. and i'm obviously lying or not telling them everything for a reason. because then they'd probably worry about me 8 million times more. stress.
so i had a 3 week stint working at dunkin donuts, and hated every minute of it. especially how my only shift was saturday morning 4:30-12. so needless to say it didn't work out and i decided to stop going, and now i've fucked myself over and dont have a job and no money. yay.
i'm being a native american for halloween. i don't know where i'm going, but i can tell you this, i will be one drunk little indian :)
i've been going down this path that i shouldn't be on, but i like it and i'm going to stay on it for awhile, you only live once, i'll see where it takes me...