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yes, we broke up. is it permenant? yes, pretty sure. do i still care a lot about him? yes. was I the one to break it off? yes. do I regret it? no.
the way i see it is that he wasn't exactly what i needed for somone i wanted to be with forever. and im 19. i need to go live life. i was happy with him and life was good, but if we didnt break up now, it would of been a year down the road. or two years. reguardless of what you may think it hurt like fuck to let him go, but I did it because it was the best for me an din the long run it'll be best for him. he'll realize that sooner or later. im sure of it. if not, hes not as smart as I know he is.
its just going to take time and healing and growing up. i've cried ever since i happened. and im not going to stop for atleast a few more days. i'm not one to throw away a year and a half of greatness. it just didnt work. we had too many problems that didnt and weren't getting fixed.
im gonna heal my heart and live my life. im still a youngin with plenty of life left in me. i'm going to enjoy every bit.
the way i see it is that he wasn't exactly what i needed for somone i wanted to be with forever. and im 19. i need to go live life. i was happy with him and life was good, but if we didnt break up now, it would of been a year down the road. or two years. reguardless of what you may think it hurt like fuck to let him go, but I did it because it was the best for me an din the long run it'll be best for him. he'll realize that sooner or later. im sure of it. if not, hes not as smart as I know he is.
its just going to take time and healing and growing up. i've cried ever since i happened. and im not going to stop for atleast a few more days. i'm not one to throw away a year and a half of greatness. it just didnt work. we had too many problems that didnt and weren't getting fixed.
im gonna heal my heart and live my life. im still a youngin with plenty of life left in me. i'm going to enjoy every bit.