LOTS OF THOUGHTS FORM THE PAST FEW WEEKS....
so honestly i dont know why god put me on this earth.... to make my life a living hell i suppose.
i dont know why i ever like guys or try to be happy with them or even get involved... i always get pushed out of the picture.... i miss ryan... but i met this kid a while ago but we were both bored so we hung out the weekend before turkey day break... it was alot of fun... we talked and watched gay movies and t.v. shows the whole night and then the next day we hung out again... even though it was for a short time i had alot of fun... i hate having crushes ... i eventually get let down....
i just want to be happy... something always gets in the way... it blows so bad... like outta control blowage! gah!
i went to the mall today with my mom which was good... we look for a shirt for my new black skirt with pink polka dots on it! its way cute! and i totally found a shirt! then i applied at pac sun and then had an interview right away... i can work any day and i hope i get hired! its my favorite store! so pray that i get the job... my two friends work there alexxx and christian... thatd be sweet to work with good friends...
i ahve been going through alot of shit lately... hoping things will get betetr but they really arent... i want someone to make me happy... and no one is...
im in school and im fucking bored.. the only person i liek in here is luke cuz he is awesomely gay and we r fucking the shit. but school blows so bad lately... i want to get away from this place....
florida was amazing.... i wish i still lived there... my friend totally got 2 blows in the head with a baseball bat at a party one night trying to stick up for a girl.. kinda scary... yeah really scary!
im writing alot ... sorry. later...
god bless...
-jess sanders-
i dont know why i ever like guys or try to be happy with them or even get involved... i always get pushed out of the picture.... i miss ryan... but i met this kid a while ago but we were both bored so we hung out the weekend before turkey day break... it was alot of fun... we talked and watched gay movies and t.v. shows the whole night and then the next day we hung out again... even though it was for a short time i had alot of fun... i hate having crushes ... i eventually get let down....
i just want to be happy... something always gets in the way... it blows so bad... like outta control blowage! gah!
i went to the mall today with my mom which was good... we look for a shirt for my new black skirt with pink polka dots on it! its way cute! and i totally found a shirt! then i applied at pac sun and then had an interview right away... i can work any day and i hope i get hired! its my favorite store! so pray that i get the job... my two friends work there alexxx and christian... thatd be sweet to work with good friends...
i ahve been going through alot of shit lately... hoping things will get betetr but they really arent... i want someone to make me happy... and no one is...
im in school and im fucking bored.. the only person i liek in here is luke cuz he is awesomely gay and we r fucking the shit. but school blows so bad lately... i want to get away from this place....
florida was amazing.... i wish i still lived there... my friend totally got 2 blows in the head with a baseball bat at a party one night trying to stick up for a girl.. kinda scary... yeah really scary!
im writing alot ... sorry. later...
god bless...
-jess sanders-