Jun 30, 2007 20:32
This tunnel goes for miles, I keep hoping for light to shine at the other end, but Instead I only tread water, shallow mucky water. My thoughts, my actions, other peoples actions, are what fills my head. Nothing worth while. Nothing motivational. I am happy. I am happy. I keep telling myself everything is fucked, but I'm completely over exaggerating. I am wallowing in my own self-fucking-pitty. I refuse to confine myself to this hole. I am not settling anymore.
Is reassurance actually just forced happiness?
Who are you reassuring?
"Hello,
down low,
I don't know who I want to be."
self deprecating