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ok so i need to just learn to shut my mouth and let things be... although that is so not even close to being the way i am. I always feel like people are out to get me, like they just dont like me but rather pretend. Im pretty sure i probley think this because im not too happy with myself and how i handle some situations. There are soooooo many wicked cool understanding people in my life that i feel just think im crazy, i want to be a different person well maybe not a different person but just be a better me!! i have an absolutley amazing boyfriend and wicked great friends, im staring school the day before my 21st birthday and i am pretty much bill free. life isnt too bad right now, and its always great until i get anger over stupid shit and dont think before i speak. i want to be a calm passive person and just take everything for what its worth.life isnt short but it can be miserable and sucky, which is easy to change with a better outlook on things. alot of little nosense things bother me even though they shouldnt. i need to learn so bad how to let those little things go,however its def not a part of me at this very moment. i wish i could wake up tommarrow and be like you know what i dont give a fuck!! i dont want to worry about petty shit anymore that doesnt even matter..........................
i love my boyfriend and everyone should have one just like him!!