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[jessa_c]

those people who stood by me
the ones who loved me...
and showed me how to love
everyone who has been there for years
and tried to help me
those who never let me push them away..
no matter how hard i tried
just know that no matter where we end up
no matter how far the distance between us
or how long it's been since we last spoke
i'll always be here if you need me
... and your issue is not of the illegal kind.
so many of you have no idea how much you meant to me
i would never have shown you...
or even tried to. i didn't know how.
i'm getting better
slowly
every day i wake up
i learn to appreciate just having the privilege
and day by day i learn to love
learn to feel and learn to care
it's one of the hardest things i've ever done
i always accomplish the goals i set for myself
usually by pushing myself too hard
trying to follow my own unreasonably high standards
i've finally realized that doing it all alone
isn't worth the pain