Here I am again
Holy crap. Hi LiveJournal. It's been a really, really, really long time since I've posted here.
A lot has happened. I went and got a revision on my naughty bits. I celebrated my ten-year wedding anniversary with Janelle. We bought a house. I started a larp. We had horrible fights. We both contemplated suicide. We physically and mentally abused each other. I was dragged out of my work office by cops. I was involuntarily committed to a mental institution. My relationship with my home larp fell apart. And now I'm in the middle of a divorce.
The fighting and collapse of my relationship directly proceeded the home-buying, which was June 1, 2015. It may have been a partial catalyst because we were both stressed. But also, two of our cats died, one day apart. We took in a woman with breast cancer who got sicker and sicker and also passed away.
And now everything is kinda super crappy.
Janelle was my rock, my anchor, my soul mate. I never planned for anything other than being with her for the rest of my life. And that future is gone now. Destroyed. I feel so lost and lonely and afraid. I'm floundering
We split in June 2016, right after I got out of the mental hospital. She got a boyfriend that month, whom I believe she is still with. And she hates me.
I could probably write more, but this is making me cry, so I need to stop for now.
A lot has happened. I went and got a revision on my naughty bits. I celebrated my ten-year wedding anniversary with Janelle. We bought a house. I started a larp. We had horrible fights. We both contemplated suicide. We physically and mentally abused each other. I was dragged out of my work office by cops. I was involuntarily committed to a mental institution. My relationship with my home larp fell apart. And now I'm in the middle of a divorce.
The fighting and collapse of my relationship directly proceeded the home-buying, which was June 1, 2015. It may have been a partial catalyst because we were both stressed. But also, two of our cats died, one day apart. We took in a woman with breast cancer who got sicker and sicker and also passed away.
And now everything is kinda super crappy.
Janelle was my rock, my anchor, my soul mate. I never planned for anything other than being with her for the rest of my life. And that future is gone now. Destroyed. I feel so lost and lonely and afraid. I'm floundering
We split in June 2016, right after I got out of the mental hospital. She got a boyfriend that month, whom I believe she is still with. And she hates me.
I could probably write more, but this is making me cry, so I need to stop for now.