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I never write in here. +No one reads it. My life=weird. I don't really know what I want. Senior year is supposed to be the best but people are being stupider than they ever have been. I want to graduate, I don't want to graduate. I want to leave Cincinnati, I don't want to leave Cincinnati. I get angry at the most petty things. People are obsessed with image. That's all they care about. People do shit just so people think they do shit and that probably makes sense to NO ONE. I want certain people to shut up. All the time. And I want other people to speak up more. People who know what they are talking about. There are so many of them, or so few of them, I'm not sure, who GET IT. Who get why they do what they do, but they don't talk about it enough. They're modest. Fuuuuuuuuck. I love 'em. I wish I was a better person. Maybe if I go on kairos I won't be a heathen anymore. I am not a heathen, though. I am pretty much just a human. I feel like I'm fooling my parents. I'm so fake to them. It makes me feel like shit. Here, let me have a conversation with you while I'm really fucking high! I'm so good at acting! You love me too much. I've never been so angsty in my life, it's ridiculous, I'm going to barf. Whyamievenwritinginhere? I'm in this phase-thing. It's this phase where I don't trust anyone. Okay, not anyone. I trust some people. A handful... but I still love the people I don't trust. I love them so much. Maybe it's just a matter of respect.. or reliance.. maybe the people I trust are the people I rely on and maybe the people I just love are the people I can only rely on when shit gets really, really shitty. I don't know.