disappointed
*big sigh*
I'm very disappointed, sad and angry about someone, who I thought would be a friend.
I only know this person via Internet, but we certainly "clicked" through our hobby, writing fanfiction. You know.. I helped her A LOT with her last story...like every evening... I gave her suggestions, helped her with ideas... like a beta. The story is great, her plot is damn good and I'm proud that I could help her.. especially since I'm not a native speaker and the story was in english (obviously duh).
So.. after some time I asked her if she could help me with translating, or better said, I've written a story in german, wanted to translate it and she could have a look at grammar etc.
I send her...10 pages I guess, the first two chapters. This was over 4 weeks ago.
After a week or so I asked her if she had a look at it, she said no, but that we could make it together on msn... interesting way of betaing but okay... it took us about an hour for one page. No, my english is not that bad.. certainly not, but well, you can imagine that it takes time.. espeically when you do other things the same time. After that.. I never heard about my work again.
So.. I thought she was busy with school and work....and I didn't want to poke her...though I have to say, that I'd love to have it back.. I mean.. it takes time to translate and I really hoped to publish the story by the end of the year....I doubt that will ever happen, because when you get no feedback...you don't have the will to translate...maybe that's my own fault....
But, the thing that really disappoints me is, that she beta*ed* two other stories, from a native writer of course.. in the last week.. and I know that I send her mine a lot earlier.... so.. why can she beta other stuff....and not mine, though she promised that she would do so, after all the help I've given her? Is mine so bad, that she doesn't want to? Or did it "slip" her, which means she wanted to.. because my work isn't worth the time she would spend with the beta work? And.. shouldn't a beta work differently? I mean.. shouldn't a beta give feedback, suggestions.. and oh well.. actually have a look at the story??
Am I pathetic? Probably.. I'm just disappointed by her...and right now my muse has stopped...for the new story....and I honestly don't know if I should continue it...yeah this is a hint.. and right now I don't care.
I'm very disappointed, sad and angry about someone, who I thought would be a friend.
I only know this person via Internet, but we certainly "clicked" through our hobby, writing fanfiction. You know.. I helped her A LOT with her last story...like every evening... I gave her suggestions, helped her with ideas... like a beta. The story is great, her plot is damn good and I'm proud that I could help her.. especially since I'm not a native speaker and the story was in english (obviously duh).
So.. after some time I asked her if she could help me with translating, or better said, I've written a story in german, wanted to translate it and she could have a look at grammar etc.
I send her...10 pages I guess, the first two chapters. This was over 4 weeks ago.
After a week or so I asked her if she had a look at it, she said no, but that we could make it together on msn... interesting way of betaing but okay... it took us about an hour for one page. No, my english is not that bad.. certainly not, but well, you can imagine that it takes time.. espeically when you do other things the same time. After that.. I never heard about my work again.
So.. I thought she was busy with school and work....and I didn't want to poke her...though I have to say, that I'd love to have it back.. I mean.. it takes time to translate and I really hoped to publish the story by the end of the year....I doubt that will ever happen, because when you get no feedback...you don't have the will to translate...maybe that's my own fault....
But, the thing that really disappoints me is, that she beta*ed* two other stories, from a native writer of course.. in the last week.. and I know that I send her mine a lot earlier.... so.. why can she beta other stuff....and not mine, though she promised that she would do so, after all the help I've given her? Is mine so bad, that she doesn't want to? Or did it "slip" her, which means she wanted to.. because my work isn't worth the time she would spend with the beta work? And.. shouldn't a beta work differently? I mean.. shouldn't a beta give feedback, suggestions.. and oh well.. actually have a look at the story??
Am I pathetic? Probably.. I'm just disappointed by her...and right now my muse has stopped...for the new story....and I honestly don't know if I should continue it...yeah this is a hint.. and right now I don't care.