Life can really stink sometimes...
Why is it that I feel like I HAVE to update every time I am down and depressed? I guess it's because I feel like getting all my sadness or anger out in the open...it kinda does make me feel better, but not all the time...so here goes...
Too much stuff has been going on here lately with my friends, and I know one mistake I have made was actually getting involved in their situation. I should have just let them deal with it, but if I had done that...they would have killed each other. "LITERALLY" So I am kinda glad I was there, but I also just wanted to help..but I can't help but feel like that was a mistake too. I feel like I'm constantly getting in other people's business, and I never intend to..I just wish I could help out more sometimes. I guess I just need to learn to back off, especially if it's not my place to say or do anything about it.
I'm just tired of seeing everyone around me going through a hard time and being down about certain problems, and most of it is about relationships. I don't know why..but I guess some people think that they have to prove themselves worthy by taking someone else away from who they are with at the current time just to prove something. I mean, why is it so important to be better than everyone else, you know? Is it really so hard to want others to have happiness too? Why must everyone fight over the same person....not everyone can date the same person that their best friend is dating, and if friends are really that good of friends...would they honestly try and take their relationship away from them on purpose just so they could prove a point... or be better than them???? I just don't understand it...GAH!!!!! It's just so confusing, but in my book..friendships are more important than "relationships" because those friendships should last for forever. Relationships just tend to come in and out of people's lives everyday. So, why ruin a friendship that could last a life time over a relationship that may not even last a freakin' week! IT IS JUST STUPID....BOTTOM LINE!!!!
BUT..on a happier note...I met some really AWESOME people at AZ this year. I had some "WONDERFUL" memories there...ones I will never forget, and faces that I hope to see more often than not =oP Maybe in my next update I shall talk about my AZ experience...yes! BUT..for now, I'll try to keep it more simple. I just...hate to see my friends in a predicament. Even more so, I hate that there is nothing I can do about it. I just can't help but feel so responsible for all of this because I want them all to be happy. I'm tired of all of the confusion, and I'm tired of all the selfishness that this world possesses...and it's selfishness that causes these sort of problems to take place. I know that it's very easy for people to get jealous of other people and what they have, but I think we all just need to realize that we can't have it "all", ya know? The world just does not work that way. I try to remind myself of that VERY same thing all the time. I dunno, but I guess it is just human nature to want everything for yourself because you know that would make you happy. I just don't understand why it has to be so hard for "people" in general to just get along with others and be happy for each other. I know I struggle with this problem also, but I know that I hate seeing people unhappy as well.
Friendship is a wonderful thing that shouldn't be lost over something stupid...like dating, and other stuff that goes along with it. And..if you happen to be mad at someone..I think it's best that you tell the person you have a problem with them rather than just avoiding them, because how are they suppose to know that there is a problem if you DO NOT tell them there is one. That also will not make the problem go away. Avoiding things never does any good at all. I know that really bothers me, and I wish people WOULD tell me if they had a problem with me, because then I could work on whatever it is that needs to be fixed.
I guess I just wanted to say...
Michael, Steven, and Aaron :OP...Guys...I really care about you all more than you could ever imagine. All I want is to see you all happy because I love you all so much. So, even if this means you all would be happier not being friends..or whatever it is you guys would think is best, then that is what I want for you all. I would really like for us all to remain friends, because I hate to see friendships tossed down the drain like that. I just think you all's differences need to be forgotten because that is what makes you all who you are, and I appreciate you guys for that. MUCH LOVE to you all! XD AND remember..I will always be around if you all need me for ANYTHING at all. Until then, I will do my best to give you all the space that you need in order to figure things out for yourselves.
AND if anybody has anything they would like to add, or any suggestions...please feel free to comment! :O)
I will update later about AZ and my pottery trip yesterday (like you all are DIEING to hear about that :OP)
*HUGS TO ALL*
Too much stuff has been going on here lately with my friends, and I know one mistake I have made was actually getting involved in their situation. I should have just let them deal with it, but if I had done that...they would have killed each other. "LITERALLY" So I am kinda glad I was there, but I also just wanted to help..but I can't help but feel like that was a mistake too. I feel like I'm constantly getting in other people's business, and I never intend to..I just wish I could help out more sometimes. I guess I just need to learn to back off, especially if it's not my place to say or do anything about it.
I'm just tired of seeing everyone around me going through a hard time and being down about certain problems, and most of it is about relationships. I don't know why..but I guess some people think that they have to prove themselves worthy by taking someone else away from who they are with at the current time just to prove something. I mean, why is it so important to be better than everyone else, you know? Is it really so hard to want others to have happiness too? Why must everyone fight over the same person....not everyone can date the same person that their best friend is dating, and if friends are really that good of friends...would they honestly try and take their relationship away from them on purpose just so they could prove a point... or be better than them???? I just don't understand it...GAH!!!!! It's just so confusing, but in my book..friendships are more important than "relationships" because those friendships should last for forever. Relationships just tend to come in and out of people's lives everyday. So, why ruin a friendship that could last a life time over a relationship that may not even last a freakin' week! IT IS JUST STUPID....BOTTOM LINE!!!!
BUT..on a happier note...I met some really AWESOME people at AZ this year. I had some "WONDERFUL" memories there...ones I will never forget, and faces that I hope to see more often than not =oP Maybe in my next update I shall talk about my AZ experience...yes! BUT..for now, I'll try to keep it more simple. I just...hate to see my friends in a predicament. Even more so, I hate that there is nothing I can do about it. I just can't help but feel so responsible for all of this because I want them all to be happy. I'm tired of all of the confusion, and I'm tired of all the selfishness that this world possesses...and it's selfishness that causes these sort of problems to take place. I know that it's very easy for people to get jealous of other people and what they have, but I think we all just need to realize that we can't have it "all", ya know? The world just does not work that way. I try to remind myself of that VERY same thing all the time. I dunno, but I guess it is just human nature to want everything for yourself because you know that would make you happy. I just don't understand why it has to be so hard for "people" in general to just get along with others and be happy for each other. I know I struggle with this problem also, but I know that I hate seeing people unhappy as well.
Friendship is a wonderful thing that shouldn't be lost over something stupid...like dating, and other stuff that goes along with it. And..if you happen to be mad at someone..I think it's best that you tell the person you have a problem with them rather than just avoiding them, because how are they suppose to know that there is a problem if you DO NOT tell them there is one. That also will not make the problem go away. Avoiding things never does any good at all. I know that really bothers me, and I wish people WOULD tell me if they had a problem with me, because then I could work on whatever it is that needs to be fixed.
I guess I just wanted to say...
Michael, Steven, and Aaron :OP...Guys...I really care about you all more than you could ever imagine. All I want is to see you all happy because I love you all so much. So, even if this means you all would be happier not being friends..or whatever it is you guys would think is best, then that is what I want for you all. I would really like for us all to remain friends, because I hate to see friendships tossed down the drain like that. I just think you all's differences need to be forgotten because that is what makes you all who you are, and I appreciate you guys for that. MUCH LOVE to you all! XD AND remember..I will always be around if you all need me for ANYTHING at all. Until then, I will do my best to give you all the space that you need in order to figure things out for yourselves.
AND if anybody has anything they would like to add, or any suggestions...please feel free to comment! :O)
I will update later about AZ and my pottery trip yesterday (like you all are DIEING to hear about that :OP)
*HUGS TO ALL*