bleh..so tired!
Well, I haven't updated in a while...so I figure...what tha hay!!!
Today was a pretty "ok" day. I woke up and BARELY made it to Bio class. Nothing new there!!! Then I went to Spanish class and we had a review for our test on Friday, but I'm taking mine on Thursday.. cuz I'm just special like that..hehe! After that I came home and ate some lunch. Then I started helping mom clean out the basement. My sister got home shortly after that, and that's when it all went down hill. Sarah starting yelling at mom again... "excuse my mom for trying to be a good parent"... but my sister claims that mom just blames her for everything and that she isn't allowed to ever do anything, and that's why she wants to leave home so badly this coming December. She then stormed up the stairs, and said "Me and Brandon Burgess will just go off somewhere far away and have our own Thanksgiving" But...
Before this little incident, mom was fussing at me for not being responsible enough, but honestly...I think it's because she feels badly about not being able to have a relationship with my younger sister. Believe me...she treats mom like she's a dog. That makes my mom so upset that I think she takes it out on me, because she honestly doesn't know what else to do about it. She doesn't mean to.. I know she doesn't, but it just really hurts her. Normally I would fuss back and defend myself for being as responsible as I can be for myself, but today I just sorta nodded my head. Her fussing at me didn't last very long either, and I was very glad for that. Maybe I'll just try the whole head nodding thing more often. We also had a discussion in the kitchen on how our family just doesn't even care to be together, and that none of us can ever get along long enough to really do anything together. This I agreed with her on.
So after the scene my sister threw.. I went downstairs and told my mom that I was sorry for what happened, and that there is just nothing we can do but to leave her alone for now. It's really sad that she doesn't even want to be a part of this family, but if she doesn't want to...then no one can force her to want to be. I feel like all she ever does is bring this family down, because she never even tries. So maybe it would be better for her to just leave, go off on her own, and do her own thing for a while. I'm sure later on she'll realize that without family...you basically have nothing.
Well....After all this, I had to leave for my last two classes of the day. When I got back home it was around 3:30, and I had to finish cleaning the rest of the basement. Then I went to my room and finished typing this REAAAALLLY REALLLLY long message...LoL!!! Benjie, you would know all about this...now wouldn't you? *HuGz you and is guilty for writing too much*
Another really bad thing about today is that I have a major ear ache right now, and it hurts really bad..'specially every time I sallow. I just feel kinda weird right now, and a lil sick too. I just hope I don't have an ear infection, or something like that. So, I currently have a cotton ball in my ear, in hopes that I don't have to go to the doctor tomorrow...YIKES!!!!
..and that about sums up my day entirely
LATER TAYTERS!!!! =o)
Today was a pretty "ok" day. I woke up and BARELY made it to Bio class. Nothing new there!!! Then I went to Spanish class and we had a review for our test on Friday, but I'm taking mine on Thursday.. cuz I'm just special like that..hehe! After that I came home and ate some lunch. Then I started helping mom clean out the basement. My sister got home shortly after that, and that's when it all went down hill. Sarah starting yelling at mom again... "excuse my mom for trying to be a good parent"... but my sister claims that mom just blames her for everything and that she isn't allowed to ever do anything, and that's why she wants to leave home so badly this coming December. She then stormed up the stairs, and said "Me and Brandon Burgess will just go off somewhere far away and have our own Thanksgiving" But...
Before this little incident, mom was fussing at me for not being responsible enough, but honestly...I think it's because she feels badly about not being able to have a relationship with my younger sister. Believe me...she treats mom like she's a dog. That makes my mom so upset that I think she takes it out on me, because she honestly doesn't know what else to do about it. She doesn't mean to.. I know she doesn't, but it just really hurts her. Normally I would fuss back and defend myself for being as responsible as I can be for myself, but today I just sorta nodded my head. Her fussing at me didn't last very long either, and I was very glad for that. Maybe I'll just try the whole head nodding thing more often. We also had a discussion in the kitchen on how our family just doesn't even care to be together, and that none of us can ever get along long enough to really do anything together. This I agreed with her on.
So after the scene my sister threw.. I went downstairs and told my mom that I was sorry for what happened, and that there is just nothing we can do but to leave her alone for now. It's really sad that she doesn't even want to be a part of this family, but if she doesn't want to...then no one can force her to want to be. I feel like all she ever does is bring this family down, because she never even tries. So maybe it would be better for her to just leave, go off on her own, and do her own thing for a while. I'm sure later on she'll realize that without family...you basically have nothing.
Well....After all this, I had to leave for my last two classes of the day. When I got back home it was around 3:30, and I had to finish cleaning the rest of the basement. Then I went to my room and finished typing this REAAAALLLY REALLLLY long message...LoL!!! Benjie, you would know all about this...now wouldn't you? *HuGz you and is guilty for writing too much*
Another really bad thing about today is that I have a major ear ache right now, and it hurts really bad..'specially every time I sallow. I just feel kinda weird right now, and a lil sick too. I just hope I don't have an ear infection, or something like that. So, I currently have a cotton ball in my ear, in hopes that I don't have to go to the doctor tomorrow...YIKES!!!!
..and that about sums up my day entirely
LATER TAYTERS!!!! =o)