bitter sweet suicide
shew today has been so hectic and i made a lot of mistakes well not so much as ringing up people just the fact of iding them :( its so stressful and honestly i dont like it well this weekend i dont cause its a holiday weekend and all kinds of strangers are passing through.... then to beat all of that off my aunt wrecked shew it was awful she was at the store and ran through the island outside then when she left she came an inch of hitting the building if she would have hit it who knows what woudl ahve happened to me and glenda cause we both were standing right at the windows shew my heart stopped....mom road with me home cause of drunk drivers and such and honestly im glad cause i wouldnt have wanted to be alone.... i got to work again tomorrow shew it will be so busy again... aww i saw michelle today that was good i saw her braces she didnt look bad at all as what she thought.. eww weener is back that was great she came in gave us all a big hug and talked to us for a while... im about ready for bed im so tired... mentally i guess shew im just so sick of everyone and everything *sighs* and honestly im getting sick of myself... i really have no one to talk to and honestly people dont notice a difference in me or dont really care.. so i just shrug everything off i have so much freaking stuff on my mind and i know i have friends i can talk to and some i really want to but i cant.... i just cant.... im so freakign sick of people and how they are... im a good person well i think so anyways and most peopel agree that i am but yet it never fails to be walked all over....especially by the ones you love.... then shew i just cant wait for college i am beyond ready to move on from a lot of freaking stuff going on... freaking people need to grow up.... yeah yeah i have my moments to just back off!!! you know i want to know what the heck is wrong with me??? grr im so getting pissed right now at no more than just thoughts how pathetic ugh! i want to leave i want to get out of this town i want to move on i want to meet new people.
F*CK YOU!!
like you honestly would care what happened to me.... i laugh
FLIPSYDE - No More
From the womb to the world from the world to the grave from the grave to the heavens and my spirit
From the liquor to the drugs to the police and the thugs to my prayers and hope that he hears it
Little kids in the street Never sleep never eat Carry burdens of their mommas' and the papas' To the
hell on this Earth Gettin' hot gettin' worse Cause were cursed nobody can stop us
Take a look see the sights that I've seen See the lust see the greed jealousy and killin'
Walk the walk that I've walked All alone in the dark overtaken by this feelin' that I'm feelin' Touch
the hand that I've touched In the night what a rush turning blue so could and breathless See the bars
and the chains on your wrist on your brain Feel the pain of a grown man's death wish
Is this all there is cause I don't want it no more
Is this all there is cause I don't want it no more
Is this all there is cause I don't want it no more
Is this all there is cause I don't want it no more
That's right little mama just keep on walkin' to school
Don't stop and talk to them fools Tryin' to holla while they sippin' on brew Cause you're gonna lose
Got to stay focused keep your mind on your dreams
Don't get hypnotized by the bling deep inside you must believe and you'll succeed
Cause all we're given is a chance They play the music and we dance And ain't no way to make it last if we don't stop and listen
It could be over in a flash When you killin' for that cash Flip an Apache and blast 'em with Tomahawk missiles
Moqtada al Sadr Bin Laden Al Qaeda They all multiplyin' and hidin' and George can't find 'em
And even if he did and killed them then another would come
We makin' enemies faster than we could pick up a gun
Is this all there is cause I don't want it no more
Is this all there is cause I don't want it no more
Is this all there is cause I don't want it no more
Is this all there is cause I don't want it no more
From my soul to my heart From the ending to the start In between it's an art and I live it From one
person to the next All respect no regrets If you next you got it then give it
Share a hug share the love we can rise up above If we try we can fly up to the heavens
All my brothers and my sisters we can make it if we listen to each other and just keep on
Is this all there is cause I don't want it no more
Is this all there is cause I don't want it no more
Is this all there is cause I don't want it no more
Is this all there is cause I don't want it no more
And I can see this change comin'
And I can see this change comin'
And I can feel this change comin'
goodbye xXx