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great im so angry again ugh im ready to scream i really am i have had a horrid day yes horrid i dont know how it could have gotten much worse without death!!!!!! no death would be an easy way out from a day like this!!! *sighs* everything is going wrong i mean everything..... i cant take it anymore i go to school where we have a program like 1st block well joe short was taking abotu decions and let me tell you it hit right at home and it really bothered me considering everything right now in my life.... i take my exam for app. studies well i forget to hand it in!!! so melissa takes it for me... i didnt do all my project for government i didnt have proof!! well you know he didnt make it clear we could take pic with a digital camera cause well i dont have any ink... so yeah total screw up there! i jsut hated how he looked at me like i didnt care or something well at that point i really didnt cause of my day... i kept dropping things, and my friends were being asses toward me ALL of them at moments they were joking but one of them was like jess you never annoy me but your getting on my nerves well that made me angry and hurt my feelings cause i was just goofing around like usual except the little more loony i wasnt feeling to good anyways... so yeah HORRID not to mention my whole freaking entry was just erased so i have to redo it!!!! grrrrrrrrr!!!!!!!!!!!!
you just ever want to go up to someone be totally upfront honest and everything no ifs and buts about it??? i do and im ready to but ... grrrrr i wanna scream i truly do and to tell ya the truth this is the reason ive been dancing here lately i just cant stand myself im going crazy i truly am...
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Passing Silenty
darkness creeps as silence fills the room
a single flame emits just enough light
sitting on your bed so white and soft
you pick up the small piece of paper
"for those that really care" you begin to write
pausing as you gaze at that one small flame
thinking how it will cease to exist just as you
making your mark at the bottom of the page
you take the blade that lay there beside you
slowly gliding it across your pure white skin
cringing from the pain a tear fall from your eye
droplets of scarlet blood make their way to your page
the room is so silent you can actually hear the dripping
gently laying yourself down you begin to feel weak
growing wearier you say a sinners prayer
dimmer the light becomes as your eyes get heavier
fearing death no more for the pain is gone
the bleeding has stopped, the flame has ceased and
...................................you have passed
please help :(