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[jess8927]

Well I garentee I wont be updating alot ne more. I have nothing to say.This entry mite be boring to some... I have alot of emotion in me right now. Rich broke up with me. Last night he called me and broke it off. I held my tears back. It was the hardest thing I've ever done. After we hung up, everything just went downhill. I couldnt stop crying. I just dont understand. I like him so much and I really thought he was amazing. I'm so hurt tho. Im just not sure ne more. He told ppl I was too flirty, but he told me a different story. & it hurts so much more becuz he lied to me. We could of worked things out. I really want to but I cant look at him. Its too hard to think I was falling so hard for this guy, and now we r just friends. Idk if i can handle being friends with him. Just writing this is making me cry. I mean all night I thought about him. and all day he was the only thing on my mind. I layed in my bed for hours, before I actually fell asleep. I never loose sleep over a guy, until now. I just wish there was something I could do to make him change his mind, but he seems pretty set on his decision. I don't feel like myself anymore. Everything I do, makes me think of him. & god I would do ne thing just to be with him, to hug him and kiss him. I never felt safer than I did with him. Every song I listen too, reminds me of him. I just can't do this. I can't pretend nothing even happened. It was only like a month long, but it was the best month I've ever had. I feel alone in this world. Idk what to do. I would give anything for just one more day with him. I deff. want him back. (obviously) I just dont think its ever goig to happen. Having a class with him is even worse. It was hard. I tried to act like I was fine, but I for sure wasnt. I hate feeling this way. Im so crushed. Im so heartbroken. Never like before. I wish I had enought strength to move on. I love him.

AHHH. I just wanna run away .