SiiGH

[jess3duh]

ita been like a month or more since ive smoke anything.
and its really getting to me now.
this is the longest ive gone.
i actually think its been 2 months.
i dont remember. =[
but now i feel like i need to more than ever.
im so dumb. i really am.
but uggh.
im sad about a couple things.
and i just want to sleep forever.
mariah knows that sleeping is my way of getting through life fast. lol
i slept for a week once. i was only up to go to school.
and i didnt even shower most of the week.
i didnt eat. i dont know why.
i tried. but i couldnt eat anything.
i scared myself doing that.
i ended up havin to go to the doctors and yea i have some shit porblem.
idk wtf it is.
but anyways.
its like 6:40 in the morning.
and i wish i cud blaze.
but i cant go to school like thatt.
and i cant do anything when i get home cuz my dads been homee for a couple days.
and im waiting for him to fucking go to work. dsjhfalshfjkdshfjak.
i think he might not leave till next monday cuz Mothers Day is this Sunday.
kay i have to finish getting dressed.
im gonna miss my bus.
bye
<3