devestated.
My heart weighs about 200 hundred pounds. Goddamn, I hate betrayl. I dont understand, I cant even fathum how you could possibly hurt someone so much that you supposedly loved....and loved you back...and trusted. PLEASe....anyone, explain the cruelty of the world to me... because it is beyond me. I miss him so much...I can honestly say that that was the hardest thing I have ever done. I hate being princibled, it would be so easy to once again lower my standards and make the pain go away. God damn.