love.
Joey is right. HE told me once that the love is thrown around to much. And that I couldn't possibly know what love is. Well. He said it in the context that I probobly didn't love Chris. I know I do. I'd marry him tomarow if I could. But Joey was right in another way. Love is thrown around to much. Love should only be used when it is unconditional. I hate all these people that put "but" and "if" in the same sentence as love or friend. My dad was right. He told me once that I will probobly only have a handlefull of real friends my whole life, because for the most part people are too shallow to stick around when times get tuff. ANd for the most part unconditional love and loyalty are not terms that are very widely understood. Thats okay. I do, i have more than a handful of true friends, they are just spread out a bit.
The doctors are going to put me on pills to balance my brain. I'm on heavy sedation right now, untill then. I don't know why i'm posting this in my journal. Maybe just to be open an honest. A courtasy that hasn't been offered to me. And to tell all of you who have so blatently betray and denied me that I still love you. Unconditionaly.
The doctors are going to put me on pills to balance my brain. I'm on heavy sedation right now, untill then. I don't know why i'm posting this in my journal. Maybe just to be open an honest. A courtasy that hasn't been offered to me. And to tell all of you who have so blatently betray and denied me that I still love you. Unconditionaly.