lost
lost it. lost my job. lost is like a part my sense of reality. lost my mind? lost my focus? i wouldn't go that far......... but i will not be me completely until i return. it of me has been left behind and even i cannot go without noticing that. why can't she see? if she misses me so much, why not give it a try? how could you not if you truly want someone to be happy? is it really that much to ask? if you could make someone whole again after so long, wouldn't you? what i haven't lost is my desire to be me....... i'm drowning myself in my music. it helps to keep the thoughts out of my head. but in a paradoxical way, it seems to just express what i've always felt. i think it has been long enough and i feel its best for all. don't worry i'm not talking about about hurting myself. i guess thats enough ranting for now.... even though i have an entire hailstorm of sorg and frustration. svart days ahead..........