New journal
SUP I'M ANGRY.
So this is going to seem
like I am directing this towards you,
and chances are I am.
Because basically
there is something in here
directed towards
every teenager.
Including myself.
First off:
I hate drugs.
I hate them.
I hate all kinds.
Pills, coke, mary j, shrooms,
ect.
I hate hearing about them.
I hate peoples obsessions.
I hate sitting in cars watching people
blow coke.
I hate being with people
on drugs.
I hate you when you're on drugs.
I hate not being able to have
a serious conversation
with my friends
on drugs.
I hate girls who do drugs with boys
and boys who do drugs with girls.
I hate that drugs are like posion.
And I hate that they scare me
like I'm some kind of child.
I hate you're stupid addictions
and cravings.
Shut you're fucking face.
You're too young to fuck
yourself over.
And too old not to care.
I hate that there's no such thing
as just chilling with your friends.
I hate that you think you're bad ass.
I hate even more that you are.
I hate that people believe anything
they hear.
Even if they know it couldn't possibly be true.
I hate that people hate being happy.
And I hate that they're really not.
I hate that I can't help them be happy,
I hate that I don't see
what they do.
I hate that I thought we had so much
in common.
I hate that I was excited for our friendshiip.
I hate that I care, and I hate that you[regaurdless of your words] don't.
I hate the shallowness of people.
I hate that I am shallow.
I hate that I'm deep.
I hate that now matter how much I hate when people care how they look: I hate the way I look.
I hate tiny girls thinking their fat.
I hate that people have it
in their heads that they can't change.
When you can always change.
I hate that I'm way too far away from Gretchen
I hate that there are over 10 people
who I am thinking of
as I write this.
And I hate that I love them all
to pieces.
I hate that
you get jealous
like that.
I hate that you are always sad
and take it out
on us.
I hate that you hit me
I hate that you hurt me.
I hate that things changed.
I hate that I don't care, but care way too much.
I hate that whoever is reading this
thinks I'm some insane
sad girl.
When I'm not at all sad.
Not even now.
I don't know how
because I don't like being sad.
I love you all
and only hate
the way things are
and how I can't change them.
and no: i dont hate you
or life
or something stupid like that.
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