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Thanksgiving was good.. my mom,me,n brian went to his mom's house that was pretty fun I guess.. My cousin is cute LoL! Anyways.. sunday we had another thanksgiving kinda,, cuz my mom wanted her house to smell like turkey LoL! she's funny. My sis came over too that was awesome when she's over it's just SOO much fun.. we laugh and I get to feel like its a real family like she brushed my hair and we tried to beat eachother up and we snuck sum turkey LoL it was just a lot of fun I wish It was always like that.. I miss alot of things that used to happen like when I hung out wit my cousin lori and all her friends and when I used to hang out wit alex and amanda until it was really dark out .. although amanda is just a jerk now.. I miss my old skool although I do kinda like my new one.. I don't think I'll be moving back to derby which means I won't go to derby high or ever be with my best friends in skool again.. I hate thinkin that this may be my last year with all the people I care about and that now I might move even farther to oxford or shelton.. I wish my grandma Rollinson was still here she'd probably make me see the best of it she always knew how to talk to me .. my sister and mom try but they just make me feel like I'm bein selfish and like I just wanna kill myself so maybe everyone else's life will be better.... I don't think wanting to be with your friends is being very selfish and that I should feel this way, I don't even really kno if we can;t move back to derby but brian and his brother are ready now.. and the only way we will find a 2 family house that they can buy in derby.. I'd definetly need a miracle! Hopefully I may get it I wouldn't ask for anything else 4 the rest of my life.. as long as I can be with my friends and family and where I kno I belong.. I even told my mom all I wanted for christmas was to be back in my hometown.... Now I do feel kinda selfish but I can;t help it.. everyone tells me I'd be better off somewhere else anyways but I wanna figure that out for myself and if they r right and I do hate derby high then I'll admit it to them but I wanna make my own mistakes and not go by everyone elses' I'm not them I'm me and I'll never kno until I try... Thats why I try to ask them for a house in derby.. thats why I want a house there .. ahh well I don't kno what else to say.