[guess who's back on LJ]
So my life has been hectic lately. And I've decided I'm probably going to randomly update this here and there. First off, I feel like crap. I filed a false police report against the man who loves me more than anything else in the world. He's forgiven me for it, but it'll take a while before I am able to forgive myself for what I've done. Stupid drunken behavior. Nyar...
Next, Matt and I are on a break. Meaning that on top of not being able to see him due to the charges I brought against him, now, I can't talk to him except for 1 thirty minute phone call a week. On Thursday nights. To be honest, I am none too thrilled about this arrangement. I just want this all to go away. The police report. The missing him. The not being able to see him when I want to.
I'm getting myself enrolled in a substance abuse outpatient therapy program. It's a bit like rehab, except it's "outpatient", which simply means that I won't be locked up anywhere. And it's sort of going to be the "honor system." I'm still really stressed out.
I haven't been going to classes lately. Which sucks cuz that means I'm going to have to play catch up this weekend. If I get the drive. I don't know. I might end up getting expelled over this false police report thing. Maybe. Depends on what they have on my record over at Student Judicial Services. *sigh* I'm so friggin' stressed out.
And top of EVERYTHING else going on, I'm losing friends over this whole fiasco. *grumble* This just hasn't been my month.
Next, Matt and I are on a break. Meaning that on top of not being able to see him due to the charges I brought against him, now, I can't talk to him except for 1 thirty minute phone call a week. On Thursday nights. To be honest, I am none too thrilled about this arrangement. I just want this all to go away. The police report. The missing him. The not being able to see him when I want to.
I'm getting myself enrolled in a substance abuse outpatient therapy program. It's a bit like rehab, except it's "outpatient", which simply means that I won't be locked up anywhere. And it's sort of going to be the "honor system." I'm still really stressed out.
I haven't been going to classes lately. Which sucks cuz that means I'm going to have to play catch up this weekend. If I get the drive. I don't know. I might end up getting expelled over this false police report thing. Maybe. Depends on what they have on my record over at Student Judicial Services. *sigh* I'm so friggin' stressed out.
And top of EVERYTHING else going on, I'm losing friends over this whole fiasco. *grumble* This just hasn't been my month.