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this world is never what it seems everytime you think you have figured something out it just changes once again. No one is what we call PerfecT
like the girl who every one thinks has it all but inside she hides so many lies built up so high that she cant even see the good on the other side anymore & problems that go on like an everlasting nightmare. the only true way to be happy is hurting herself knowing that its no one else whos doing it at that moment. she wants sympathy for that understanding . periodically she'll let everything out untill once again the piles overflowing with what she cant take
its hard to be yourself when your being asked to change without a word. wondering if you will ever be good enough for someone with out changing who you really are . the wind blows right through as if my space is invisible, being chassed to a sheltered harbor where i am less protected then ive ever been. They only see all that i allow, let them choose whom im visible to
i remeber growing up liek it was only yesterday, mom and daddy tried thier best to guide me on my way. but the hard times and the liquor drove the easy love away and the only love i knew about was hard love to pay ...
it was hard love every hour of the day, when christmas to my birthday was a million years away, and the fear that came between them drove the tears into my play...
and i recall the gentle courtesy you gave me as i tried to dissemble in politeness all the love i felt inside and so for every song of laughter was another song that cried...
so i loved you for your courage and your gentle sense of shame, and i loved you for your laughter and your language and your name and i knew it was impossible, but i loved you just the same, though the only love i gave to you back was hard love for you to pay...
it was hard on you i know, when the only love i gave to you was love i couldnt show...
so ill tell you that i love you even though i feel so pushed away , and ill tell you how you change me as i live from day to day
if we slip apart from one another
tell me that youll come back please
if not i trust only that youll leave
like the girl who every one thinks has it all but inside she hides so many lies built up so high that she cant even see the good on the other side anymore & problems that go on like an everlasting nightmare. the only true way to be happy is hurting herself knowing that its no one else whos doing it at that moment. she wants sympathy for that understanding . periodically she'll let everything out untill once again the piles overflowing with what she cant take
its hard to be yourself when your being asked to change without a word. wondering if you will ever be good enough for someone with out changing who you really are . the wind blows right through as if my space is invisible, being chassed to a sheltered harbor where i am less protected then ive ever been. They only see all that i allow, let them choose whom im visible to
i remeber growing up liek it was only yesterday, mom and daddy tried thier best to guide me on my way. but the hard times and the liquor drove the easy love away and the only love i knew about was hard love to pay ...
it was hard love every hour of the day, when christmas to my birthday was a million years away, and the fear that came between them drove the tears into my play...
and i recall the gentle courtesy you gave me as i tried to dissemble in politeness all the love i felt inside and so for every song of laughter was another song that cried...
so i loved you for your courage and your gentle sense of shame, and i loved you for your laughter and your language and your name and i knew it was impossible, but i loved you just the same, though the only love i gave to you back was hard love for you to pay...
it was hard on you i know, when the only love i gave to you was love i couldnt show...
so ill tell you that i love you even though i feel so pushed away , and ill tell you how you change me as i live from day to day
if we slip apart from one another
tell me that youll come back please
if not i trust only that youll leave