My very own rent
Why did you blew it Melanie? why did you fall in love with me? You knew I had someone in my life, you're the one I've said the most about it. You used some of the things I've said against me, I can't fucking beleive you bought a bottle of the same perfum. You have no idea what you've done to me. I thought you and Guillaume were finally together or whatever the hell is happening I just don't know anymore, you need to make up your mind and stop playing with his feeling and sending him to each side of the emotional plane. He's a damn good guy, very smart, fun, reliable etc etc and you know it. You told me about your past but you need to fucking move on and open your eyes, he's not like the others .Omg if you could hear the way he talks about you, he loves you to death, he respects you and he cares about you. Now he avoids me, I lost his trust and I didn't lift a finger, now he's in florida for a week and I can't talk with him to fix this up. He knew you and I were very close friends, he also knew nothing was going on. Hell you're the one who kept telling people we were just good buddy, yeah we joked around a lot to confuse people but thats what it was JOKING. I have never wanted more than your friendship and I said it and I never did anything to show otherwise, I was just being myself. You always asked me if it bothered me when we cuddled,wrestled and so on and it never did bother me because it was innocent, nothing more to it. How and when did this started?? you've only given me boggus anwsers, I don't think you're a bad person you are just confused. You won't force a choice on me because there is simply no choice to be made, I'm with someone already and also I would NEVER do that to Guillaume because he a good friend. If you fail to accept that then its over. It fucking sucks because now I miss having someone to cuddle with, having someone to talk to for hours, I miss my drinking buddy and giving her piggyback ride when she's dead drunk...fuck I miss our friendship. Now I don't know if I can trust you anymore. I don't want to lose my 2 best friends out of this shit and find myself alone again. Its been a little over a week now and I've had no one to talk to, to be with. I need to rectify all of this...I'm sick of losing people in my life. I need to fix it.
wow..I feel slightly better.
I've had a terrible headache all day and I can't think straight, I haven't had a headache in like 5 years...plus I'm drunk all by myself on a week night, thats a lowly feeling....thats a lonely feeling.
wow..I feel slightly better.
I've had a terrible headache all day and I can't think straight, I haven't had a headache in like 5 years...plus I'm drunk all by myself on a week night, thats a lowly feeling....thats a lonely feeling.