blegh...
i have a calculus test tomorrow. i think im ready for it. i did my homework early today. i almost finished it. i didnt do number 19 because i couldnt figure it out. mr. monsevalles told the calc class after i left that everyone except me that showed up to class friday would get a free 100 quiz grade BECAUSE they showed up. the band students skipped since they had a game in pharr and got home late, and the s/d/d students werent there because they had a tourney. kiran said it was probably because i was clowning around. but i wasnt clowning around that much, and rick was clowning around too. and rick is one of the few that get that free grade. and it cant be said that it's because i left early because i left only fifteen minutes early to sell pizza for VICA, the club mr. sommer sponsors and accused me of being disloyal to because of the fact that im also in the other chapter of SkillsUSA, and he didnt have to let me go early because mr. sommer only asked if i could get out early, and it was up to him to let me do so. im pretty upset only because i dont know if he was serious, and if he was then i feel bad about "clowning around". he said i was moving furniture, but i wasnt, i stuck the front of the desk in front of me in the slit in the desk in front of it. can you picture that? it's quite simple. and he got upset, i didnt really make any noise in the process of doing so, so i dont know how he caught me so quickly, and i wasnt going to make any noise while putting it back, but kiran moved the back of the desk, so it made noise anyway. and then rick grabbed the front of the desk and lifted it up and then dropped it, and made even more noise. so i guess i can see how i caused all of it, but it wasnt ALL my doing. ho hum...
mom read a note carly wrote me freshman year, and carly swore in the note which has never even been a big deal. everyone swears, its completely normal. and mom has a potty mouth herself so i dont see what her problem was with it. and i didnt understand why she felt compelled to go through and read my personal belongings, so i asked her why she felt compelled to go through and read my personal belongings, and she told me it was because she wanted to know what i was up to. and i asked her why she couldnt just ask. and she kind of implied that it was because she didnt trust my answers which proves my theory correct: its not that she doesnt trust my friends, its that she doesnt trust me. i cant stand that she doesnt trust me. im such a good kid that its a little embarrassing sometimes. and i got upset with her and i kind of still am upset with her. and i think only those friends of mine like courtney that understand her distrust because i tell them about it all the time can understand how i feel and not think that im overreacting. its extremely upsetting. i cannot stress that enough.