Oh. My. Equus.
It is the kind of play that changes lives.
This picture terrifies and calms me at the same time. It is an accurate representation of Equus inside Alan Strang’s soul.
Equus is God.
The horses are tormented and enslaved like Jesus. They made me realize that we all have sharp chains in our mouths. We are enslaved and tortured every day of our lives.
The chain never comes out.
The chain never comes out.
In Martin Dysart’s dream, he murders children by removing their entrails. Underneath his mask, green sweat pours down his face. The mask slips, but he must continue the ritual anyway. This dream IS Martin Dysart’s life. By interrogating and tricking his patients, he looks into their souls and extracts memories from their minds that are essential to their being. He states, “Passion, you see, can be destroyed by a doctor. It cannot be created.”
Ah, don’t you love the diction? The word “destroyed” portrays Dysart’s job as a murderous act.
Without passion in your life, you are essentially dead. This is why Martin Dysart is jealous of Alan Strang. Every three weeks, Alan rides Nugget in the middle of the night and has a spiritual enlightenment. Dysart has never felt this sort of passion, and he probably never will.
I’m jealous. Those horses were sexy.
When Alan has sex with Jill, he feels that he has betrayed Equus. He feels that Equus is watching him always, and he thus blinds the horses in the stable with a hoof pick.
It is a conflict of society. We are torn between the fact that sex is natural and the belief that sex is a spiritual enlightenment. When Alan sees his father at a pornography theatre, he realizes how he and his father are similar. He realizes that sex is natural; everyone does it. He walks down the street with Jill, and he watches the passerby, thinking about how they all watch pornography or commit sexual acts. He is not alone after all. This is what urged him to have sex with Jill. It was his religious commitment to Equus that tore him from her and tormented his soul. He blinds the horses, but he is still enslaved to them. He is still controlled by the “chinklechankle.”
Dysart doesn’t want to treat Alan because he doesn’t want to take away the worship and passion. A “normal” life may not be good. It is a normal for an adult to have a “dead stare,” but it is definitely not good.
Before Dysart met Alan, he assumed that Alan was going to be another “usual unusual.” He was wrong.