When September ends
Bloggin' in September.
My resignation from Bob's stores.
I thought I would be able to handle school and work at the same time, but I was wrong. It was a mental overload. I simply cannot do costumes and props, AP homework, and four hours at Bob's all in one night. Who can?
As I shuffled around the store and folded clothes, I was always indifferent towards everything. I neither liked nor hated the people, the clothes, or the smell. I thought about many things, but I never made any decisions in my mind. I was constantly numb.
I am not an indifferent person; I always have my opinions. It was frightening that the store had the ability to numb me. When I was home, I hated it. I hated everything about it. I wanted to quit every night, and I dreaded going to work the following day. Why didn't I hate it while I was physically in the store?
I decided to quit after I realized it wasn't good for my health. I was getting no sleep because I had to do my homework after work. Homework would take me hours because there were too many things to be done. I wrote my two weeks notice and handed it over to my gay manager Anthony. When I told him I was quitting, he didn't look pleased. He frowned, looked at the letter, and sarcastically mumbled, "Well, everyone knows how to brighten my day." I smiled pleasantly as he walked away. Then I felt guilty.
I ALWAYS feel guilty. I don't know if many people know that fact about me. Any time I say or do anything inappropriate or different, I almost instantly regret it. The regret may not last very long, but it's still there. It pains me to pain other people.
The guilt went away when the burden went away. As I became free, I became happy. It was perhaps my greatest decision of September.
Abortion
Abortion seems to be the topic of discussion in September. Many people are only voting for McPain (McCain + Palin combined) because they agree with the Republican view on abortions. I think these people are stupid. Abortion is a personal issue, not a political issue. We should focus on political issues in elections. Things like the economy and education are far more important than abortion.
I honestly don't get it.
Does Palin disapprove of abortion even when the fetus (prebaby) may potentially kill the mother? Yes, I think she does disapprove. How horrible.
New Kitten
A kitten was lurking near our house for weeks because we were leaving out food for the stray cats of our neighborhood. I called her the "ugly one" because her fur was matted and one of her eyes was infected and bloodshot. She was incredibly skinny, smelly, and dirty. I pitied more than I pitied the other cats. She was dying, and I had to save her.
Eventually Tony caught her, and we brought her to the animal hospital. They kept her overnight because she was dehydrated and needed to be put on an IV. When we brought her home the next day, she slept for three days straight. She only got up to eat and pee. I thought the medicine wasn't working. Why wasn't she playing? Why wasn't she moving?
It is now a week later, and I cannot feel her ribs anymore. She has a plump belly and puffy cheeks. She plays with a stuffed fish on a string and tries to make friends with my other kitten. Luke actually has the nerve to hiss at her. He's the annoying one, not her. She should be hissing at him.
We named her Molly Madison. I've always liked the name 'Molly' for a pet and Madison has always been my favourite president. Plus, Madison is a girl's name too! How cute!
Is that it?
I'm really tired. I think I'll go to bed now....
Peace [of MIND].