new direction
so my procrastination brings me here once again. i am extremely excited to go away this weekend, i need a break. i need to readjust my priorities. i need to re-focus. I just had a trial run these last couple weeks, and I would grade myself a C. eh, just average. Yet, I am so much happier than i have ever been. I have a peace. well its a bit of a conflicted peace but its getting there so much quicker. everything that i strived for before has now become something i tend to look down upon. NOt the people who are contributing to it, because that would make me the definition of hypocrisy, but rather the acts that they are committing to. Drinking and smoking no longer have any appeal to me anymore. they do not bring any good whatsoever. I will stand by that forever. While i am not saying i am never going to have a beer again, I will say it will be extremely rare for me to go out with the intentions to get wasted or stoned. All of that has just become a distraction to what is really important in life, and finally, something i have known all along, I realized is my faith. I am so happy that I have my faith and being on campus reaffirms that daily. There really is nothing better in the world to have a sound mind in life and the longer i go, the more i realize that no one in life has one everyone is simply continually distracting themselves with objects, lifestyles, addictions that will come to an abrupt end. The whole greek life, something that look so appealing months ago, now looks like the most shallow, insignificant waste of time imaginable. while the comrodority that is formed is admirable, the whole foundation on what they believe in is pathetic. Lets drink a half gallon of laundry detergent and fuck goats so that you can be apart of our frat! yes, for 1000$ a semester, that sounds like an amazing idea. not to mention, a potential alcohol addiction with some fun STDs to help the journey become so much better! talk about some comrodority! crazy.
i am procrastinating and it is irritating me. ive been pretty good with avoiding procrastination. but not this week. i have a big drawing to do, and i actually do not mind doing it, it is just sitting down to get the work done that is so difficult for me. typical story.
AH i love this book though i am reading. Celebration of Discipline. My god, it is great. Talk about something that helps you develop a sound mind, not to mention, an opportunity to learn how to develop a healthy relationship with God. it helps significantly. i am just praying that this weekend will be an eye-opener, an opportunity to learn how to refocus my priorities in college and be the man God has called me to be. I have so much more room to grow and I am ready to take the challenge ahead of me. thank you God.
i am procrastinating and it is irritating me. ive been pretty good with avoiding procrastination. but not this week. i have a big drawing to do, and i actually do not mind doing it, it is just sitting down to get the work done that is so difficult for me. typical story.
AH i love this book though i am reading. Celebration of Discipline. My god, it is great. Talk about something that helps you develop a sound mind, not to mention, an opportunity to learn how to develop a healthy relationship with God. it helps significantly. i am just praying that this weekend will be an eye-opener, an opportunity to learn how to refocus my priorities in college and be the man God has called me to be. I have so much more room to grow and I am ready to take the challenge ahead of me. thank you God.