Not Fair...
Everyone around me is getting wasted. And I'm not. Because I'm the good girl that's gunna sit back, help people when they're in need. I go with Jim so he can get stoned and drunk, I drive him home, like a good friend. I answer his phone when Chip and Heather call wanting to do something, I have to tell them what's goin on. They stop by, Chip tries to get him up, but he's passed out. I call Rob, he's wasted over Ryan Brewer's. I know Tyler's out somewhere partying. So I go home. IT'S ONLY 11:00 my Saturday night is ruined. Sunday was work. It really actually put me in a good mood to work. Kate, Kevin, Adam, Michele, and Jay. Plus Donna, Emma, and Harry, but we didn't really see them. Clams and cheesesteaks. Kevin is such a laid back kid, but he works hard. He's a lotta fun!
Last night I didn't end up doing anything. I was maybe going to go over to Kate's to hot tub and drink, but we decided against it. I just chilled and played cards with my mom. Didn't have to get up early or anything, just didn't have the energy to go out. It was my first full day of work!!
Today I woke up at like 10. Renaissance luncheon at noon. Afterwards I took Tyler with me to run some errands, dropped off my tux finally for dry cleaning!!! I also stopped at the bank, cashed some checks and deposited some. I'M RICH, BITCH!! Then instead of taking pics with Hub (she went and interviewed instead), we played some pool and ping pong, then baseball and GTA on PS2. I talked to Jim, he said lets hang out, then changed plans again. Tyler went to go get drunk. Kate's drunk at Deanna's. I was supposed to go, but here I am, being the good girl again. What can I say? I fit into that role too well. I have a few exceptions (lets say, sexual?) but overall, I'm the good girl. I don't smoke. I rarely drink. I don't do a lotta illegal shit. I'm almost always on time for my curfew, I'm almost always where I say I am. And when I do want to cut loose and live a little, my parents always find a nitch and catch me so I can't. I stayed here and watched Sweet Home Alabama and Signs. Played more canasta with my mom. She got re-hooked.
People just tick me off. Summer's almost here, and I'm already missing out on the party. I'm so scared I'm going to miss so much when I'm in Italy. Missing the fourth is SUCH a big deal, we have such a big party here that whole week, and there are so many people that come that I'm going to miss, and not see until after my first year of college is done.
I got music in the mail today for auditioning for wind ensemble for UDel. It looks ok, a few runs but they look chromatic/scaletone so hey maybe I'll audition.
I'm listening to Lisa talk about this guy Ricky, and it sounds so much like what's going on with me and Jim. Except stronger cause she's known Ricky for about a month. I don't know what I'm expecting with Jim, or what I want with him. I guess it's kinda cool, we can act like we're together when we're together, but when we're not it's all open. Even when I'm with him, he comments on other girls, tries to get numbers, but always comes back and kisses me. He was talking to me asking if he looked gay (his shoes were really ugly) and I was like if we go out, people are gunna think you're my gay best friend. And he says then I'll just do this *long passionate kiss followed by an ass grab* and say does that look gay to you?? He's got a good sense of humor.
I have to stop thinking about him. Just force myself. Or else I'll turn out like Lisa (not that that's a bad thing, but she is so hurt right now)
Maybe if I sleep thing's will get better...
Last night I didn't end up doing anything. I was maybe going to go over to Kate's to hot tub and drink, but we decided against it. I just chilled and played cards with my mom. Didn't have to get up early or anything, just didn't have the energy to go out. It was my first full day of work!!
Today I woke up at like 10. Renaissance luncheon at noon. Afterwards I took Tyler with me to run some errands, dropped off my tux finally for dry cleaning!!! I also stopped at the bank, cashed some checks and deposited some. I'M RICH, BITCH!! Then instead of taking pics with Hub (she went and interviewed instead), we played some pool and ping pong, then baseball and GTA on PS2. I talked to Jim, he said lets hang out, then changed plans again. Tyler went to go get drunk. Kate's drunk at Deanna's. I was supposed to go, but here I am, being the good girl again. What can I say? I fit into that role too well. I have a few exceptions (lets say, sexual?) but overall, I'm the good girl. I don't smoke. I rarely drink. I don't do a lotta illegal shit. I'm almost always on time for my curfew, I'm almost always where I say I am. And when I do want to cut loose and live a little, my parents always find a nitch and catch me so I can't. I stayed here and watched Sweet Home Alabama and Signs. Played more canasta with my mom. She got re-hooked.
People just tick me off. Summer's almost here, and I'm already missing out on the party. I'm so scared I'm going to miss so much when I'm in Italy. Missing the fourth is SUCH a big deal, we have such a big party here that whole week, and there are so many people that come that I'm going to miss, and not see until after my first year of college is done.
I got music in the mail today for auditioning for wind ensemble for UDel. It looks ok, a few runs but they look chromatic/scaletone so hey maybe I'll audition.
I'm listening to Lisa talk about this guy Ricky, and it sounds so much like what's going on with me and Jim. Except stronger cause she's known Ricky for about a month. I don't know what I'm expecting with Jim, or what I want with him. I guess it's kinda cool, we can act like we're together when we're together, but when we're not it's all open. Even when I'm with him, he comments on other girls, tries to get numbers, but always comes back and kisses me. He was talking to me asking if he looked gay (his shoes were really ugly) and I was like if we go out, people are gunna think you're my gay best friend. And he says then I'll just do this *long passionate kiss followed by an ass grab* and say does that look gay to you?? He's got a good sense of humor.
I have to stop thinking about him. Just force myself. Or else I'll turn out like Lisa (not that that's a bad thing, but she is so hurt right now)
Maybe if I sleep thing's will get better...