5 months...but feels like yesterday
I never thought one day you'd be gone,
away forever more
No one can say, no one could explain
why you were taken
Oh where are you now?
Could I get there somehow?
It's time to say goodbye
Block out the sun and pack up the sky
Don't let my tears start to make you cry
Each time I try to say my goodbye
Try to stop asking why
Tell me it's true, tell me there is something more
Another time for love
One day I'll know, one day I'll be there
Will you be waiting?
Oh where are you now?
Could I get there somehow?
The lyrics of this song pretty much describe what I've been going through. Some days I get the feeling that something or someone is entering my life for the best, but deep down inside all I can think of is where's Jeremy? He should be here, on the phone talking to me about how he can't believe it's been almost a year since we started dating. Instead I sit here alone wanting to never wake up till I can hear his voice again. But unfortunately I must awake so I don't fail graduate school. Jeremy wouldn't want that, he'd want me to succeed. Finding the extra push to get me out of bed is the problem... and at this point I don't know what to do or say. I'm considering transferring to VCU so I'll be closer to my VA network of friends and or Rutgers to be at home. Determining which is best for me in the end is something that I won't know till I make a choice between the two. Gah... my life was so much better before April 16th, fuck that a-hole for taking innocent peoples lives!
Anyways... off to contemplate... any advice would be great...
away forever more
No one can say, no one could explain
why you were taken
Oh where are you now?
Could I get there somehow?
It's time to say goodbye
Block out the sun and pack up the sky
Don't let my tears start to make you cry
Each time I try to say my goodbye
Try to stop asking why
Tell me it's true, tell me there is something more
Another time for love
One day I'll know, one day I'll be there
Will you be waiting?
Oh where are you now?
Could I get there somehow?
The lyrics of this song pretty much describe what I've been going through. Some days I get the feeling that something or someone is entering my life for the best, but deep down inside all I can think of is where's Jeremy? He should be here, on the phone talking to me about how he can't believe it's been almost a year since we started dating. Instead I sit here alone wanting to never wake up till I can hear his voice again. But unfortunately I must awake so I don't fail graduate school. Jeremy wouldn't want that, he'd want me to succeed. Finding the extra push to get me out of bed is the problem... and at this point I don't know what to do or say. I'm considering transferring to VCU so I'll be closer to my VA network of friends and or Rutgers to be at home. Determining which is best for me in the end is something that I won't know till I make a choice between the two. Gah... my life was so much better before April 16th, fuck that a-hole for taking innocent peoples lives!
Anyways... off to contemplate... any advice would be great...