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I go to Mike's house today for around 15 minutes, and I/my clothes smell like him/his house. It's pretty much the smell of cigarettes and his stupid dog.
Last Saturday I didn't go to that show, sadly. I'll get to see TSL again anyway.
Sunday was The Used, The Bled, The Bronx, and No Warning. I went by myself and ended up making friends with the people in front of me. We drank sparkling apple cider and kept saying we were drunk to the point where it felt like we actually were for some reason. And one of the security guards was writing on our arms with a Sharpie. Since I pushed him, and he turned around and realized I was taller than him, he wrote, "I'm cool because I'm tall." Then we tried counting the number of people with The Used shirts on, but that would have been too much work. We all had to pee too 'cause it was sorta cold out so we wished we had dicks for just a minute. They were cool, fun people. I get to see them again at The Starting Line show 8-]
Sooo, it was a fucking awesome show besides my camera deciding not to work and me holding it the whole time for nothing. No Warning were pretty good. A lot of people seemed to know them. The Bronx were great. The singer was drunk off his ass, which made it funner. I love their drummer because he is realllly good. The new song was good too. I was practically the only one signing/screaming along in the front, so I got their set list since no one else reached for it. The Bled were amazing. I didn't pay much attention to the new bassist, because he wasn't as energetic as Celi, but oh well. Their new song was really good. I liked it a lot because it sounded heavier and he screamed throughout the whole thing. James was annihilated too, but not as bad. I guess he holds better. At the end when Mike was slowing down his drumming-which I also think is amazing-I did some stupid hand motion to him so he would throw me a drumstick, and he did! He's got good aim. It was so ready to break too, and it gave me bruises on two of my knuckles from holding it the rest of the time. I felt bad 'cause it kept hitting people, but who the fuck cares? I was happy. The Used were really good. I wished they would have played 'Sound Effects and Over Dramatics' and 'Choke Me' though. At least we got one song they never played live for anyone else. Bert stayed by my side for the majority of the time, so I got to sing along into the mic a lot. I did with The Bronx and The Bled a few times too. The kiss was fucking hot as hell and longer than usual. I don't care what anyone says. Though you could tell Quinn seemed like the better kisser. I certainly got my money's worth ;-] I'm also glad that Head Automatica didn't play, because it would have pissed me off since they'd be so out of place.
I have no idea what happened this week. Just the fact that I was harrassed by certain people for the most of it. Wanting me to do things I shouldn't be doing. It was crazy, and probably still will be.
Oh, I get to try out for bowling again, because Lagowski extended the date we needed to hand in physicals. Although I stopped practicing a while ago, because I thought I lost my chance. Yippee! I really hope I make it since I'm lazy and I don't join anything else. I hope John makes it too even though he still thinks he won't. We were supposed to go tonight, but there was a change of plans so we should be going tomorrow. Then I'm going to the mall with Dave, Ola, hopefully Marc, and maybe someone else. Sunday-nothing yet, but I need to start on G&T homework to show her that I'm doing something. I don't have a good picture of myself, so I have to sit in front of a mirror and do it 8-/
I think right now, I'm sort of living two lives-the one people see, and the other they do not. I don't even know how to go about it, because I feel like nothing is real, including myself. Like, these things aren't happening to me, because it wasn't supposed to work out this way. I'm so used to acting... differently I suppose, or, I really don't know how I act. I like to think I'm honest, but there are just some things I can't divulge or I won't. I also think that not really having someone to talk to about stuff doesn't really help either. I'm not comfortable around certain people I know. Most of the time when I meet strangers, I'm comfortable around them because they don't know me. People who do, have one perception of me, and it most likely will not change. Though, if I meet someone new, all I have to do is make a good first impression and hope they perceive me the right way or in a good way. It makes things easier and hightens my self-confidence, rather than what I do in school where everyday brings the same situations and personalities, and I don't feel good from that. I would like to go to shows more often so I can get more of those chances to meet different people since I can't anywhere else. I'm tired of everyone, myself included.
Last Saturday I didn't go to that show, sadly. I'll get to see TSL again anyway.
Sunday was The Used, The Bled, The Bronx, and No Warning. I went by myself and ended up making friends with the people in front of me. We drank sparkling apple cider and kept saying we were drunk to the point where it felt like we actually were for some reason. And one of the security guards was writing on our arms with a Sharpie. Since I pushed him, and he turned around and realized I was taller than him, he wrote, "I'm cool because I'm tall." Then we tried counting the number of people with The Used shirts on, but that would have been too much work. We all had to pee too 'cause it was sorta cold out so we wished we had dicks for just a minute. They were cool, fun people. I get to see them again at The Starting Line show 8-]
Sooo, it was a fucking awesome show besides my camera deciding not to work and me holding it the whole time for nothing. No Warning were pretty good. A lot of people seemed to know them. The Bronx were great. The singer was drunk off his ass, which made it funner. I love their drummer because he is realllly good. The new song was good too. I was practically the only one signing/screaming along in the front, so I got their set list since no one else reached for it. The Bled were amazing. I didn't pay much attention to the new bassist, because he wasn't as energetic as Celi, but oh well. Their new song was really good. I liked it a lot because it sounded heavier and he screamed throughout the whole thing. James was annihilated too, but not as bad. I guess he holds better. At the end when Mike was slowing down his drumming-which I also think is amazing-I did some stupid hand motion to him so he would throw me a drumstick, and he did! He's got good aim. It was so ready to break too, and it gave me bruises on two of my knuckles from holding it the rest of the time. I felt bad 'cause it kept hitting people, but who the fuck cares? I was happy. The Used were really good. I wished they would have played 'Sound Effects and Over Dramatics' and 'Choke Me' though. At least we got one song they never played live for anyone else. Bert stayed by my side for the majority of the time, so I got to sing along into the mic a lot. I did with The Bronx and The Bled a few times too. The kiss was fucking hot as hell and longer than usual. I don't care what anyone says. Though you could tell Quinn seemed like the better kisser. I certainly got my money's worth ;-] I'm also glad that Head Automatica didn't play, because it would have pissed me off since they'd be so out of place.
I have no idea what happened this week. Just the fact that I was harrassed by certain people for the most of it. Wanting me to do things I shouldn't be doing. It was crazy, and probably still will be.
Oh, I get to try out for bowling again, because Lagowski extended the date we needed to hand in physicals. Although I stopped practicing a while ago, because I thought I lost my chance. Yippee! I really hope I make it since I'm lazy and I don't join anything else. I hope John makes it too even though he still thinks he won't. We were supposed to go tonight, but there was a change of plans so we should be going tomorrow. Then I'm going to the mall with Dave, Ola, hopefully Marc, and maybe someone else. Sunday-nothing yet, but I need to start on G&T homework to show her that I'm doing something. I don't have a good picture of myself, so I have to sit in front of a mirror and do it 8-/
I think right now, I'm sort of living two lives-the one people see, and the other they do not. I don't even know how to go about it, because I feel like nothing is real, including myself. Like, these things aren't happening to me, because it wasn't supposed to work out this way. I'm so used to acting... differently I suppose, or, I really don't know how I act. I like to think I'm honest, but there are just some things I can't divulge or I won't. I also think that not really having someone to talk to about stuff doesn't really help either. I'm not comfortable around certain people I know. Most of the time when I meet strangers, I'm comfortable around them because they don't know me. People who do, have one perception of me, and it most likely will not change. Though, if I meet someone new, all I have to do is make a good first impression and hope they perceive me the right way or in a good way. It makes things easier and hightens my self-confidence, rather than what I do in school where everyday brings the same situations and personalities, and I don't feel good from that. I would like to go to shows more often so I can get more of those chances to meet different people since I can't anywhere else. I'm tired of everyone, myself included.