BAD MODE ARRISING! (dont not read if in good mode)
For some reason today i have been in the worset mode..i have no idea why but i am. Im aggravated with danny, myself..and pretty much everything today..i think im just so overwhelmed and it doesnt seem like anyone cares. I wish i could fine my birth mom but thats beginging to look like its never going to happen. I try everything and nothing seems to work. I think thats the bases of my bad mode. Plus it doesnt help that i miss my parents ( not like they could care less but still ). I feel as though i have lost all my friends which i know isnt true but sometimes it feels like it. I think im about to lose my dunkies job which personally i could careless...shes a bitch anyway and i caint stand her. But then again if i get fired then we will really have no source of income which makes it ten times worse then it already is. I wish that i could go back in time and redo my life...I wouldnt be almost homeless..and i would be soo much happier then i am now. I think i have honestly reached the lowest point in my life. I dont think i could go any father. But then again i could be wrong just like i am on everythin else. I dont know how much more of this life i can take. Its to the point where i dont want to wake up in the moring. I dont wanna be here anymore. I dont think that anyone would miss me anyways.Besides a select few...I look at myself and im disgusted with how horrible i look and i wonder why God hates me soo much that he had to give me this body. He must honestly hate me. i dont know what to do with myself or my life anymore...Maybe i should just die...That would solve everything.....
P.S.- sorry for the bitching...i needed to put it somewhere...