Life goes on
It really sucks when you've been friends with someone for 8 years, and then because of one incident, that all comes to an end. A few years ago, I would've tried to fix what happened. But now, I see things in his personality that he has in common with someone I dated in the past. That relationship was a mess not because we didn't care about each other, but because he had problems that had nothing to do with me, and I couldn't help him. Even though I couldn't help him, it killed me to see him like that and it ultimately brought me into a really deep depression that took me about a year to get out of. As a result of that experience, I know a lot better what I can and can't handle, and what is and isn't worth it.
So although for 8 years he was one of my best friends and I will miss him, I see that he is in a bad place right now and I can't get through to him. I know that what he's saying to me is a result of what he's feeling right now, and again...I can't help him even though I've tried and I really wish I could. What he's saying pisses me off but I'm not letting it get to me because I realize he's in over his head. So it's time I cut my losses and move on. I offered to be there for him and to help with everything that's been going on, and I think I did help him for a few months. But at this point, he needs help that I can't provide and he won't listen to anyone. I don't know what else to do. I did tell him if he threatened me again that he would no longer be welcome in my house. He threatened me again, and now he's permanently out of my life. I refuse to be treated like that by anyone. I waited almost an entire week for an apology and left him unblocked for that reason - and today he finally speaks to threaten me again.
So as much as I think it's immature to "block" people, I blocked him because my sanity is more important than his feelings right now. Maybe that's shallow, but I need to take care of myself for a change. Being told I'm a "fucking bitch" isn't helping matters right now, and there are definitely better ways to express your feelings than by lashing out like that.
I hate these few years because I've already grown out of so many friendships, I grew up way too fast and I feel like I left everyone behind. But I guess it's normal and it happens and you just have to be happy for the memories you had with them and look forward to the future...
So although for 8 years he was one of my best friends and I will miss him, I see that he is in a bad place right now and I can't get through to him. I know that what he's saying to me is a result of what he's feeling right now, and again...I can't help him even though I've tried and I really wish I could. What he's saying pisses me off but I'm not letting it get to me because I realize he's in over his head. So it's time I cut my losses and move on. I offered to be there for him and to help with everything that's been going on, and I think I did help him for a few months. But at this point, he needs help that I can't provide and he won't listen to anyone. I don't know what else to do. I did tell him if he threatened me again that he would no longer be welcome in my house. He threatened me again, and now he's permanently out of my life. I refuse to be treated like that by anyone. I waited almost an entire week for an apology and left him unblocked for that reason - and today he finally speaks to threaten me again.
So as much as I think it's immature to "block" people, I blocked him because my sanity is more important than his feelings right now. Maybe that's shallow, but I need to take care of myself for a change. Being told I'm a "fucking bitch" isn't helping matters right now, and there are definitely better ways to express your feelings than by lashing out like that.
I hate these few years because I've already grown out of so many friendships, I grew up way too fast and I feel like I left everyone behind. But I guess it's normal and it happens and you just have to be happy for the memories you had with them and look forward to the future...