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Quick update before bath and work...
Today my manager got the rankings of NY Metro Region TICE staff. For those of you who know me in real life, you probably know that yes, they actually rank us according to overtime. I absolutely refuse to kill myself to get to the top of this list, but at the same time I'll die if I am at the bottom of this list.
Well. Apparently I am ranked #42 of all the experienced associates in the NY Metro TICE practice. That puts me dead center. I'm kinda ok with that, but I was hoping I would be a little higher...until I found out that the girl who was #1 had clocked 830 hours of overtime since July. WTF, no. If that's what it takes to make #1, fuck it, I don't care. I told my manager this too. I've been working until 2 AM most nights, and I only make it to the middle. You know what, I'm fine with mediocre. Between work and school, I have no time to myself...which was actually brought to my attention last night by a good friend. I can't even remember the last time I had "me" time. So...I think I am going to start looking for a new job. I won't ever be happy being average, and I won't be happy killing myself to get above average. So yeah...this might not be something I'm cut out for and even though I have no idea what I want to do, at least I'm starting to realize that this may not be it.
Today my manager got the rankings of NY Metro Region TICE staff. For those of you who know me in real life, you probably know that yes, they actually rank us according to overtime. I absolutely refuse to kill myself to get to the top of this list, but at the same time I'll die if I am at the bottom of this list.
Well. Apparently I am ranked #42 of all the experienced associates in the NY Metro TICE practice. That puts me dead center. I'm kinda ok with that, but I was hoping I would be a little higher...until I found out that the girl who was #1 had clocked 830 hours of overtime since July. WTF, no. If that's what it takes to make #1, fuck it, I don't care. I told my manager this too. I've been working until 2 AM most nights, and I only make it to the middle. You know what, I'm fine with mediocre. Between work and school, I have no time to myself...which was actually brought to my attention last night by a good friend. I can't even remember the last time I had "me" time. So...I think I am going to start looking for a new job. I won't ever be happy being average, and I won't be happy killing myself to get above average. So yeah...this might not be something I'm cut out for and even though I have no idea what I want to do, at least I'm starting to realize that this may not be it.