drums of the revolution
i have been a lone for the past week or so, housesitting for antone. just me, calvin(dog), Mr. P(cat), Janus, Woody, and Babe(horses), and lots of chickens.
i just watched a movie where a man and a woman fall in love and right after they have an arguement, the man dies. then the woman makes up with her friends, blah blah blah, goes through a healing process, and realizes she is pregnant with the man's child, and everything is okay again. and i realized that movies like that really bother me. HE'S STILL DEAD. and she will be broken, to a certain degree, for the rest of her life. even though everything is okay now, and she's content with who she is and all that, it doesn't fix the fact that he's dead now, and nothing can be fixed. it's permenantly broken.
i hope no one in my life ever dies, especially if it's so that i can learn some sort of lesson.
it's so hard to be so attached.
anyway, antone is coming home tomorrow, and i'm really excited because i miss him so much it hurts. i know, right? you're thinking that i should be sick of him by now, just having spent 3.5 months together and with no one else around, but the truth is that i couldn't miss him more. i love him more than anything.
i made a pound cake today, because antone really likes pound cake, AND it takes 9 eggs. there is an over flow of eggs because the chickens have been laying a lot more and there's only me to eat them. there aren't even enough people to give them to. i've eaten so many eggs recently i don't quite think i could eat another one. but there you go, i'll probably have some for dinner.
love,
chloe
i just watched a movie where a man and a woman fall in love and right after they have an arguement, the man dies. then the woman makes up with her friends, blah blah blah, goes through a healing process, and realizes she is pregnant with the man's child, and everything is okay again. and i realized that movies like that really bother me. HE'S STILL DEAD. and she will be broken, to a certain degree, for the rest of her life. even though everything is okay now, and she's content with who she is and all that, it doesn't fix the fact that he's dead now, and nothing can be fixed. it's permenantly broken.
i hope no one in my life ever dies, especially if it's so that i can learn some sort of lesson.
it's so hard to be so attached.
anyway, antone is coming home tomorrow, and i'm really excited because i miss him so much it hurts. i know, right? you're thinking that i should be sick of him by now, just having spent 3.5 months together and with no one else around, but the truth is that i couldn't miss him more. i love him more than anything.
i made a pound cake today, because antone really likes pound cake, AND it takes 9 eggs. there is an over flow of eggs because the chickens have been laying a lot more and there's only me to eat them. there aren't even enough people to give them to. i've eaten so many eggs recently i don't quite think i could eat another one. but there you go, i'll probably have some for dinner.
love,
chloe