um...ok
so i'm going to try and clear something up here...i write my feelings and emotions at the time when i type on these journal type things. if people dissagree with something i say they are telling me i'm lying to myself...that doesn't work...see when i say i can't do something it means i think i can't or i feel i can't. soo when i type things in here i'm sitting at a computer at work and i'm interupted like a thousand times i have to close all the boxes all the time sometimes i have to straight up cut what i'm writing so as it isn't there anymore and paste what i'm writing to finish it later. so it may be confused and scrambled but if read in the right context it's how i feel at that point in time.
also i've been doing so damn good with some things...i've been trying to make myself a little better trying to care more about things i should care about and care less about things i shouldn't care about and i've been pretty damn good lately and i've gotten nothing but shit for it. i'm yelled at every damn day for something new...if you want me to change so much and be soo smart and cool go out and find someone smart and cool and able to communicate and leave me the fuck alone...or stop yelling at me. it's not that hard to be nice i've been doing it on accedent for years.
also i've been doing so damn good with some things...i've been trying to make myself a little better trying to care more about things i should care about and care less about things i shouldn't care about and i've been pretty damn good lately and i've gotten nothing but shit for it. i'm yelled at every damn day for something new...if you want me to change so much and be soo smart and cool go out and find someone smart and cool and able to communicate and leave me the fuck alone...or stop yelling at me. it's not that hard to be nice i've been doing it on accedent for years.