meds
As of a couple months ago, I've been on Wellbutrin. This has helped quiet some of the noise in my head, and has made things a bit clearer.
For example, literally clearer are trees and things in the distance, because instead of my eyes defocusing and glazing, they pinpoint in on something "out there."
The one I find the most interesting, took me some time to realize what was going on. I tend to process images as what they literally/actually are, rather than what they represent. For example, trying to read upside-down. Before, the text looked fuzzy, and I could kind of flip the characters over in my mind, and read upside down quite well. Now, the letters come in sharp, and they just look like upside-down letters. It's significantly more difficult to read upside down.
On the other hand, my mind doesn't wander when I read something long. In the past, a couple of pages in to *anything*, and I'll be thinking of something else with my eyes still moving. Now, i can get through lots of text without a problem. And if my mind wanders, I realize it immediately and am able to go right back in. When I used to read stories to Jasper at night, I'd constantly be stumbling over words to speak what I was reading, whereas now, I can read through books outloud quickly without any stumbling at all.
So, trade off better right-side up reading for no upside-down reading ability? That's a deal I'm happy to take.
For example, literally clearer are trees and things in the distance, because instead of my eyes defocusing and glazing, they pinpoint in on something "out there."
The one I find the most interesting, took me some time to realize what was going on. I tend to process images as what they literally/actually are, rather than what they represent. For example, trying to read upside-down. Before, the text looked fuzzy, and I could kind of flip the characters over in my mind, and read upside down quite well. Now, the letters come in sharp, and they just look like upside-down letters. It's significantly more difficult to read upside down.
On the other hand, my mind doesn't wander when I read something long. In the past, a couple of pages in to *anything*, and I'll be thinking of something else with my eyes still moving. Now, i can get through lots of text without a problem. And if my mind wanders, I realize it immediately and am able to go right back in. When I used to read stories to Jasper at night, I'd constantly be stumbling over words to speak what I was reading, whereas now, I can read through books outloud quickly without any stumbling at all.
So, trade off better right-side up reading for no upside-down reading ability? That's a deal I'm happy to take.