alone.
so greg and i go to his house and end up drinking a minimal ammount of vodka.
i find my cell phone while moderatly buzzing and start calling people.
eventually i get to her number.
her and her friend happened to have just gotten their pj's on and started to watch a movie.
but i convince them to come over and watch a movie with us.
so i end up spooing/cuddling/falling asleep with her in my arms for a bit while her friend and greg do the same else where in the house.
then her friends cell phone rings.
its her friends BF.
then her cell phone rings.
and its some other dude she makes plans with or whatever the hell.
it felt damn god to have her in my arms again, let alone any female.
just the warmth of a female body next to mine makes me feel just so like, alive.
nothing else really makes me want to do anything in my life other then being with a girl, having her in my arms, in my life.
but why do i tease myself with her.
she wont ever want a relationship with me.
i dont think i'll ever know what she really wants from me.
maybe she just wants the same as i do to hold/be held by someone.
im not even gonna say "girls are confusing" becuase guys are just as much so, so i'll just leave it at:
Relationships are confusing. a lot of the time they never get anywhere becuase people get to afraid to express what they want out of it, or dont know what they really want from it.
my dreams of finding some one to be mine, are fading fast.
blah, it can only get better from here.
-Jeremy Rose
i find my cell phone while moderatly buzzing and start calling people.
eventually i get to her number.
her and her friend happened to have just gotten their pj's on and started to watch a movie.
but i convince them to come over and watch a movie with us.
so i end up spooing/cuddling/falling asleep with her in my arms for a bit while her friend and greg do the same else where in the house.
then her friends cell phone rings.
its her friends BF.
then her cell phone rings.
and its some other dude she makes plans with or whatever the hell.
it felt damn god to have her in my arms again, let alone any female.
just the warmth of a female body next to mine makes me feel just so like, alive.
nothing else really makes me want to do anything in my life other then being with a girl, having her in my arms, in my life.
but why do i tease myself with her.
she wont ever want a relationship with me.
i dont think i'll ever know what she really wants from me.
maybe she just wants the same as i do to hold/be held by someone.
im not even gonna say "girls are confusing" becuase guys are just as much so, so i'll just leave it at:
Relationships are confusing. a lot of the time they never get anywhere becuase people get to afraid to express what they want out of it, or dont know what they really want from it.
my dreams of finding some one to be mine, are fading fast.
blah, it can only get better from here.
-Jeremy Rose