to you, and you

[jerneja]

 i don't know if i can drag you out of your black world into my happy happy world. i've been doing it for a while now, and there's been no changes, and i don't know if i have the energy to do it yet again, and again, and again. you'll have to do it now. i'm letting go - and if you want to keep me around, you'll have to figure a way. i'm really tired.

and to you - i'm sorry for everything i've put you through. i now know exactly how you felt, and i'm really really sorry.