Self Absorbed
I feel hopeless most days. And I do mean hopeless, not sad. Or depressed... just hopeless and forgotten maybe. Like maybe I didn't make a lasting impression on someone, or maybe they simply didnt like me. I'm always lost in thought and searching for some form of reassurance. It never comes.
Im lost back into my old ways, yet this isnt high school anymore. I dont have to feel so small and forgotten. I wouldnt ever want to go back and do it all over again, but I wish I could change so much of what happened. I am so much less than the person I want to be right now. I think that maybe if I hadnt let people shove me around I would be so much farther than I am right now.I need to learn to look onward. I cant just keep dwelling in the past or feeling sorry for myself.
Someone tell the snow to melt faster... I can't wait much longer before I run away from this mess.
Im lost back into my old ways, yet this isnt high school anymore. I dont have to feel so small and forgotten. I wouldnt ever want to go back and do it all over again, but I wish I could change so much of what happened. I am so much less than the person I want to be right now. I think that maybe if I hadnt let people shove me around I would be so much farther than I am right now.I need to learn to look onward. I cant just keep dwelling in the past or feeling sorry for myself.
Someone tell the snow to melt faster... I can't wait much longer before I run away from this mess.