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[jerkiko]

well it looks as though fo new years, as much as i want to party down in the shitty, and thorouly intoxicate myself with perhaps more than one substance, i will be going right into the middle of butt fuck no where BC with the bf. his friend has this cabin that is boat acsess only on harrison lake, and about 10 of us are going...albiet, these friends of his are not the most exictable people (and maybe ill dare to say the exact opposite of me) i am really craving nature, and feel all fucked up because i havent spent much time outside as of late....except for snowboarding, but im used to spending the whole day outside, escaping the stale air, and enclosed space of house, car, factory, car, house. ahhhh our society in a snapshot......i cant wait to meet the challenge of finding somthing that will fuffill me in my life....i guess most would call it a career, but it doesnt seem that sticky...(i think im going to adventure tourism school in oz, and take people into the jungle for a living)...i have hope, and am pretty sure i create everything in my life, so im tryin out some new tactics....resolutions mayhaps? one is to be waaaay more sure of myself...its easy, confidence...acting carfully and deliberatly, without egotistical rantings coulding my mental frame....to be more clear, and open with people, and learn how to co-exist with all the lives around me.

whoa, got a little off track there....so yeah, harrison it is....where i will spend warm hours in that space where we meet....somwhere in the middle of all our doubts and worries....he is really good at just letting things go where they will, and not pushing anything....a serious catch, but...there will always be a butt

ha!

happy whatever...winter everyone

ps i think christmas might just be a satanic holiday.