Randomness
Is it just me, or did everyone just migrate from here to facebook or another blog site entirely? The majority of posts on the feed here are in Russian. I miss having more livejournal friends. I surf imgur a lot and there just isn't a sense of community there for me... And I'm totally not ballsy enough to make reddit posts or comments.
Today has been kind of horrible as far as pain goes. For whatever reason, my lower back has been really hurting. My lower back almost never bothers me so I'm thinking I'm having some sort of breakthrough pms symptoms even though I have a subdermal implant for that. I honestly can not think of another reason I'd be having this terrible pain... but pain killers won't even start to touch it so I was a dud the whole time my mom and I were out earlier and now I've been in bed with a heating pad for several hours.
I talked to my friend today... the one who announced that she has breast cancer. I just can't believe it. I'm worried for her.
When I think about my late teens and early twenties, I can't believe that was my life. It feels like another world completely. Another lifetime. Another person.
I can't believe that I was friends with Kim and how far we've grown apart...
Did I mention that Cy and Monica are moving away? Well, fuck. I don't want them to go. Peter moved to South Korea ages ago. We never speak and I still miss that friendship.
I miss some of the ladies from my former job.
I feel lonely but I like being a little distanced. I like the computer between myself and most other people... Visiting make me tired.
It feels so hard to connect with people or to develop anything meaningful with new people.
I miss my grandma and grandpa and the way things were before they died and my uncle went crazy. That was my safe place...
Now I can't even go there.
Today has been kind of horrible as far as pain goes. For whatever reason, my lower back has been really hurting. My lower back almost never bothers me so I'm thinking I'm having some sort of breakthrough pms symptoms even though I have a subdermal implant for that. I honestly can not think of another reason I'd be having this terrible pain... but pain killers won't even start to touch it so I was a dud the whole time my mom and I were out earlier and now I've been in bed with a heating pad for several hours.
I talked to my friend today... the one who announced that she has breast cancer. I just can't believe it. I'm worried for her.
When I think about my late teens and early twenties, I can't believe that was my life. It feels like another world completely. Another lifetime. Another person.
I can't believe that I was friends with Kim and how far we've grown apart...
Did I mention that Cy and Monica are moving away? Well, fuck. I don't want them to go. Peter moved to South Korea ages ago. We never speak and I still miss that friendship.
I miss some of the ladies from my former job.
I feel lonely but I like being a little distanced. I like the computer between myself and most other people... Visiting make me tired.
It feels so hard to connect with people or to develop anything meaningful with new people.
I miss my grandma and grandpa and the way things were before they died and my uncle went crazy. That was my safe place...
Now I can't even go there.