[Hecubah]
I felt the baby move.
....
I forgot how that felt. Forgot how it was with Jinodah how it made him a person to me and not just a condition.
Thought about wakin up Mat and sharin it, but fuck it. It ain't the last time the baby's gonna move and it ain't like it's the first kid he had, even if he never stuck around for any of the others. Besides, I don't even know if he'd give a damn.
....
And if I'm bein honest, I wanted the first time to myself. He says he's stayin but I don't know that and he already flat out told me he's never done it before. If I can't count on him stayin I ain't sharin every moment. Some of them are gonna be just me and the baby...
....
I forgot how that felt. Forgot how it was with Jinodah how it made him a person to me and not just a condition.
Thought about wakin up Mat and sharin it, but fuck it. It ain't the last time the baby's gonna move and it ain't like it's the first kid he had, even if he never stuck around for any of the others. Besides, I don't even know if he'd give a damn.
....
And if I'm bein honest, I wanted the first time to myself. He says he's stayin but I don't know that and he already flat out told me he's never done it before. If I can't count on him stayin I ain't sharin every moment. Some of them are gonna be just me and the baby...