Chain of Consciousness
I still wonder why I keep this thing going.
I think I am attracted to the freedom I feel like only about 4 people read this and of those 4 people, like 2 actually care. Its a pretty freeing feeling.
The Library is a silly place. It's completely silent, yet the silence is hands down the most distracting part about it. I can hear everything. Every move, sneeze, grunt, sigh, and yawn. Each one even more distracting then the next, the sound of me typing this for example is probably extremely distracting the the kid with his hood on indoors that is sitting next to me cruising Facebook, funny, I didn't know we had Facebook homework. I think the library is stupid, but it doesn't have a TV and that will help in the long run for getting this paper for Women's Studies done.
That class is an interesting one. I love the textbook, and hate the class. Weird.
God I love Kenny Chesney
I hope Kairos goes well for Linds and E, I really do. I am trying to make any expectations for the two of them but knowing me, that's extremely difficult. Expectations, always, 99% of the time upset me. That's probably attributed to my active imagination and hopeless attraction to poetic language and scripted moments becoming reality, two things that you can basically count on not seeing in either of those two, so for the moment, no expectations. Not Low expectations, just none for now.
I hate that I can't appreciate what I have. That is a really sucky thing about me. Like friends, I have AMAZING friends, but for some reason, the ungrateful bitch in me would rather pine and whine over one shitty friend who doesn't really deserve my time, attention, or effort. Meanwhile, I have wonderful friends who barely get recognized, I think I am going to work on that.
I gave up lying for lent. I failed miserably and its only the second week of Lent. I do not know why I feel the need to lie, I just find it far better then the truth. The truth is pretty lame and uneventful. My lies make me like myself a little more and that's not good. I'll keep working on that too.
This self awareness livejournal message is still just a ploy to avoid my Women's Studies paper. Nice try Katie. I'll go...Enjoy.
I think I am attracted to the freedom I feel like only about 4 people read this and of those 4 people, like 2 actually care. Its a pretty freeing feeling.
The Library is a silly place. It's completely silent, yet the silence is hands down the most distracting part about it. I can hear everything. Every move, sneeze, grunt, sigh, and yawn. Each one even more distracting then the next, the sound of me typing this for example is probably extremely distracting the the kid with his hood on indoors that is sitting next to me cruising Facebook, funny, I didn't know we had Facebook homework. I think the library is stupid, but it doesn't have a TV and that will help in the long run for getting this paper for Women's Studies done.
That class is an interesting one. I love the textbook, and hate the class. Weird.
God I love Kenny Chesney
I hope Kairos goes well for Linds and E, I really do. I am trying to make any expectations for the two of them but knowing me, that's extremely difficult. Expectations, always, 99% of the time upset me. That's probably attributed to my active imagination and hopeless attraction to poetic language and scripted moments becoming reality, two things that you can basically count on not seeing in either of those two, so for the moment, no expectations. Not Low expectations, just none for now.
I hate that I can't appreciate what I have. That is a really sucky thing about me. Like friends, I have AMAZING friends, but for some reason, the ungrateful bitch in me would rather pine and whine over one shitty friend who doesn't really deserve my time, attention, or effort. Meanwhile, I have wonderful friends who barely get recognized, I think I am going to work on that.
I gave up lying for lent. I failed miserably and its only the second week of Lent. I do not know why I feel the need to lie, I just find it far better then the truth. The truth is pretty lame and uneventful. My lies make me like myself a little more and that's not good. I'll keep working on that too.
This self awareness livejournal message is still just a ploy to avoid my Women's Studies paper. Nice try Katie. I'll go...Enjoy.