Shambles
I really do not know how long I can lie to myself. I feel like Doogie Howser MD typing out my emotions on this silly laptop at the end of the day, but its really all I have. I have come to realize that someone has been living a pretty sweet life having me wait on the and be at their beck and call. It must be nice to have someone care about you so much, but yet not have any piece of mind to return any of it. Yeah I sound like a selfish brat right now but I am fed up and sick of it. It no longer makes me cry anymore, it just makes me mad. I'm sure if I made a list right now of things I do for you that no one else does, everyone would know exactly who I am talking about. Don't you realize I am your ONLY friend?
I invite you out places
I check on you when something happens
I make you christmas presents
I introduce you to people
I encourage you
I listen and deal with all your crap
I help solve your problems
I really don't know any another person willing to do that for you. Maybe you should think twice about treating me like some back up reserve friend. Its time you wake up and realize that your club friends and older friends are not going to call you. Maybe its time you appreciate exactly whats in front of you instead of criticising it to make yourself feel better. 2009 is another new year. Thanks for letting me waste my 2008 jumping through hoops for you. Well 2009 will NOT be that way. You know where I will be, and maybe this time I will stop worrying about you and just enjoy MY life, because I have plenty of friends who love and care about me, the sad thing is, its YOU i worry about, because you aren't as lucky anymore.
I invite you out places
I check on you when something happens
I make you christmas presents
I introduce you to people
I encourage you
I listen and deal with all your crap
I help solve your problems
I really don't know any another person willing to do that for you. Maybe you should think twice about treating me like some back up reserve friend. Its time you wake up and realize that your club friends and older friends are not going to call you. Maybe its time you appreciate exactly whats in front of you instead of criticising it to make yourself feel better. 2009 is another new year. Thanks for letting me waste my 2008 jumping through hoops for you. Well 2009 will NOT be that way. You know where I will be, and maybe this time I will stop worrying about you and just enjoy MY life, because I have plenty of friends who love and care about me, the sad thing is, its YOU i worry about, because you aren't as lucky anymore.